CHAPTER 9: Lost Crown

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"Women are more superior from men and I say this because we give birth to them. We give our sex to them. We nurture them. And we raise them. We rule this whole entire world because we are more superior from them. We can see through their bullshit while they're still looking and searching for the problem. We're they're mind, as they do the work.
Women and men can not be equal. Yes we can do some things that they can BUT they can't do as we."
-A lady with sense

December 23, 2021
The next Morning

I sat up in bed as I looked at my sunny brown curtains. Tears trickled down my face as I faced the reality.

Ian never getting out this life. I'm never going home.

I'm still tied to this game that I tried to sign over. This game I played took and stole every last person I ever loved. Why can't I get out of this abyss.

You created it.

Shut up.

And you killed everyone that ever loved you. Own up to ya shit Snap.

November 24, 2017

He paced around the room with tears down his face. He couldn't help but to feel as though he ruined the only good thing in his life over a mistake.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." He cried as he repeated that in his head and out loud.

He taken several of his mom's sleeping pills and now he was trapped in his bathroom. Sitting in the tub with his clothes and shoes on. His long curly hair dangled over his eyes as he cried his self silly.

"I'm so dumb she'll never forgive me." He held the razor blade his foster dad used to trimm his beard with in one hand and his phone in the other as he tried to call her. On the first ring it went straight to voice mail. He knew they're relationship was over.

He'd seen her do this. She does it to everyone. He knows how long she can hold a grudge with someone, he knows how stubborn she is. That's why she ain't answering his calls.

She's done with him.

He called again and like the last thousandth time he went straight to voicemail. But unlike the last time he wanted to say something instead of hang up.

"You want to hate me? FINE! I don't care okay. What happened to us never falling out especially over any nigga huh! He wasn't even yours yet! Is this your excuse just to push me out ya life then alright, you won't have to deal with me anymore." He said as he cried knowing his Best friend/ sister may never care. She never cares once you betrayed her and he did just that in her eyes.

"You know I love you mamasita, you know that you know I wouldn't hurt you because I love you broo. We're family. Your my only family you were the only thing left only thing that kept me going... but now you don't care so I don't care okay." He paused looking at the time. It was 1:28am.

"Im sorry we had to come to this. You were the ONLY thing keeping me here Mi. I love you dawg bye." He cried more as he put the blade to his arm and started to cut it up. He was done he had said everything he had to say.

His arm stang. The one with the phone in his hand. He couldn't believe he was really pulling through with this and this time she wasn't here to stop him.

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