Veiled Diaries #2: Mask of The Blues

MOTB 21

#MOTB21

The last weeks with Rekta before going to Spain with my family went so well and blissful. It was just 2 pair of days in two weeks because we couldn't take the weekdays as how we wanted, kailangan niyang umuwi ng Manila at ako naman ay nag-aaral din sa bahay. Sa hapon na kami nagkakausap na dalawa hanggang alas nuwebe ng gabi, I was content with that as long as he's at the end of the day to save my sanity.

End of the month, we went to Spain to celebrate the every three year death anniversary of our great grandparents until New Year. I met the other Zobels and Azcons, kasama rin sila Clairvaux doon at hindi kami nagkakausap na dalawa kahit nagkakasalubong. Kumpleto kami sa Spain, there's a ranch with a very big as castle mansion where we are all staying. Malapit din doon ang moseleyo ng aming pamilyang yumao, no other names but only Azcon and Zobel.

I remember the last day with Rekta while reading a book in the swing...

"Baka mambababae ka pag malayo tayo." banayad kong sinabi habang nakanguso.

He didn't say anything, he just renewed his hug around my waist. We were sitting on the soft ground of dry leaves, nakasandal siya sa puno habang ako'y nasa pagitan ng kanyang mga hita at nakayakap siya mula sa aking likuran. I played the black watch on his wrist, my back was leaning against his body. He was playing a mobile game earlier, tinuruan pa niya ako. Kaso lagi naman kaming natatalo dahil hindi ako gaanong marunong.

I'll surely miss this kind of day with him.

"I won't." he droned after minutes.

"Sure?"

He nuzzles my hair. "Very."

"Paano mo nasisiguro?"

"Nang-aasar ka lang, e." he reviled.

I laughed. "Hindi, ah. Gusto ko lang malaman kung paano mo nasisiguro na hindi ka nga mambababae. Baka pagbalik ko puro ka na naman kagat ng putakte or worse, in between the months we're apart. Maitatago mo iyon."

"We'll video call naked, then." he chuckled.

"Bastos ka?" patanong kong sinabi.

He laughed shrilly while nuzzling on my nape, umiling siya. "Hindi. It would be a proof that I don't have marks all over."

"Sus, ang dami-daming puwedeng gawin. Baka magkiss ka ng ibang babae kasi wala ako, babaero ka pa naman."

Nakakakuha talaga ako ng mga normal na kilos sa libro kapag may boyfriend na ang isang babae, nakakatuwa lang pero nakakakaba rin. My heart is always drowning in every beat of it and I don't know how I could manage to be this normal all along. Siguro dahil ganito naman kami noon, pero madalas naman ay nakaunan lang siya sa hita ko. Ngayon kasi nayayakap na niya ako, hindi ko mapigilan ang mangilabot tuwing maalala na nagsimula lang ito sa pagiging matalik naming magkaibigan.

"It's your choice to doubt my loyalty to you." he whispered, he gently planted kisses behind my ear and cheek. "Wala ka bang tiwala sa boyfriend mo?" natawa siya roon.

"Wala." iling ko at ngumuso lalo.

Rekta is always sweet, kahit hindi kami magkasama at sa tawag o text lang magkausap ay nararamdaman ko pa rin ang kanyang concern at kalambingan. I don't think I could ever get enough of his sweetness and care, all in all parang wala namang nagbago. He just became super extra now!

He groused and squished me more, I giggled.

"Okay, then. What's the deal?"

"Hmm... wala. I'm just kidding, nasa sa'yo na iyon kung hahanap ka pa ng ibang babae pag wala ako at ayos lang sa akin, I want you to have a diversion when I'm away." banayad kong sinabi.