I down another glass of scotch as I wait for Hazel to show up. Paul has just texted me and told me he had picked her up.
She should be here any minute.
I hope she likes the gift I gave her.
I don't know what I was thinking, I'm trying to make her hate me but yet I can't help but want to see her smile.
We're bad for each other.
She'd break me if I let her in.
And I'd hurt her.
It's just who I am, no matter how much I try. I always screw up.
And I don't want to see her hurting.
What is wrong with me?
This feeling stirring inside was new and I didn't like it. I didn't like it one bit.
I'm not supposed to have feelings. Im not supposed to show my emotions. Im not supposed to be vulnerable.
I can't handle it.
I can't let someone in.
And even though I'm trying so hard, she just won't leave my head. She's the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about when I fall asleep.
I know she carries a lot of baggage, but hell I do too.
She has a son.
I have a blood sucking career.
She had a rough childhood.
I have a secret that I refuse to let out.
But it's so close to breaking through. I can't let it out. Everyone's opinions would change of me. I have to keep my reputation the way it is; clean, and pristine.
Everybody knows that I sleep around, but my business ethic is one to be desired. And that's what I can't lose. And I know I would.
That's why my secret has to remain inside.
All I have is my company. I don't have room for anything else.
I don't know why I'm wasting my time waiting and searching for her. I can't want her. I want to, but I can't.
"Hey man, you finally showed up to one of these huh?" Jordyn, my best friend asks.
I turn my attention on him as he claps a hand on my shoulder.
"Yeah, I didn't have much of a choice. I'm having some problems with the investors."
Jordyn raises an eyebrow before taking a sip of his drink.
"Just say the word man, you know I'd be willing to help out"
I shake my head without a second thought.
"No. I don't need your help J. I can handle it myself."
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Forbidden Fruit ✔️Romance
Book one of the FORBIDDEN series! ** Nick Knight is the CEO of Knight Tech. He gets everything he wants, no questions asked. Hazel Richmond is his personal assistant. He doesn't know she exists and takes her for granted. That is until he wants he...