Learn To Be Real | KTH

Chapter 27

Yoongi POV

Looking at the door in front of me, I take a deep breath as I glance over to Hoseok. He's got the same worried expression on his face that I have, terrified over the fact that we actually got called to come here.

Biting my lip nervously, I reach up and knock on the door. Not waiting long for it to be opened, Tae doesn't say a single word as he simply opens it before walking away. My heart aches for him, understanding the kind of pain he's going through right now as we both step inside wordlessly before Hobi closes the door behind us.

"How're you holding up?" Hoseok asks softly as we follow him into his bedroom. He merely stops in his tracks, remaining silent as he seems to just stare off into space for a moment before continuing to walk once more. It concerns me that he's already fallen this low, to the point of not even having the energy to talk. It takes a really nasty blow to be able to knock someone like him to that level. Though, in a worrisome sense, it adds up as I imagine he didn't have too high of a mental spot to be falling from to begin with.

I only move away from the doorway of his bedroom when he's finally climbed back into his bed, laying there and staring up at the ceiling emotionlessly. Pursing my lips, I walk over to him and crawl onto the bed with him. He turns his head to the side so that he can look over at me, and the sight of just how broken and dead he clearly feels completely shattering my heart.

Trying to stay strong for the younger boy, I give him a tiny sympathetic smile. His gaze merely falls though, before he turns his head to look back up at the ceiling. Sighing softly to myself, I wrap an arm around his waist and pull him over to me, somewhat turning his limp body for him so that I can cuddle him better. He's faced towards me now, and it's only seconds later that he's burying his face into my chest as he gently fists my shirt in his hands.

I manage to somehow glance over at Hoseok who's still stood in the doorway, a worried look on his face.

"Tae, have you eaten yet today?" Hoseok pipes up in a gentle tone.

"I'm not hungry." Tae manages to mutter heartbrokenly into my chest before he starts sobbing harder than he had been. Hobi just nods, making eye contact with me for a brief moment before disappearing from sight. It's good to know that he really is taking this as seriously as it needs to be, that he's going off to most likely make something for him to eat.

I just hold Tae tighter in my arms, rubbing his back gently as I try not to cry myself. It's nice to know that, despite how angry he is with us for everything we've done, that at the end of the day now, he can at least feel like he can come to us. I'm not entirely sure that it wasn't simply because he was desperate and needed someone, or if it was because he actually believed our honesty when we apologized the other day. Whatever the reason may be though, I'm glad he's letting us be here to take care of him now and help him through this. I'm glad he actually called me, actually wanting us here for him despite how hurt he still was from everything we'd all done.

And not only that, but I have the ability to kind of give back right now, what he's done for me many a times in the past. Only a few times, did I need comforted because of how heartbroken I'd been when my first girlfriend finally broke up with me while we were still trainees. But, he's been there for me every single time I've needed someone, even when the others had been fed up with my antics. He always came and checked on me after everyone else had quit, always waited up for me to come home while everyone else had already gone to sleep, made sure I was eating when everyone else finally stopped trying to force me, made sure I wasn't too hard on myself and was always there when I needed someone who would listen to me.

Now, I can finally be here for him. I just wish it weren't still partly do to the damage that I'd certainly caused, and that it weren't over such a painful heartbreak as what he's just gone through.

"It's gonna be okay, Tae. It'll be okay. I know it hurts, I know just how badly it hurts, Tae. It's gonna be okay though. You're gonna be okay, and you're gonna get through this. You're not alone anymore. I promise, I'm by your side to stay this time, Tae. You've got me and Hobi, and the other boys when you can manage to see them again. I've got you. Shhhhh. It's gonna be okay. I promise, you'll be okay eventually. I'm here with you now, Tae, you don't have to be afraid anymore. You're not alone anymore, and it'll get better eventually. You just gotta give it time, bud. I promise."