At the end...

part 4

I had to sleep with one of them in the same bed. Crap. I don't know... I think that I will decide with who tonight,I don't wanna stress over that now.

We did all sorts of things there,we went on a theme park,went in a museum and after we grabbed dinner at Target we there played hide and seek. We got kicked out. But it was a lot of fun.

Drew and Brad got back to our hotel while I wanted to look at the beach one more time. In between doing all those stuff they also bought me a dress,it was a flowy summer dress,and it was kinda a really light peach colour.

Again I was alone here,in this moment,the moon was bringing and the waves were moving. My feet were touching the sand and I could feel little shells as I was walking. I sat down and started looking at the waves and all of a sudden tears started forming on my eyes,I started crying and I wanted to scream.

It hurts,it hurts so bad like someone was stabbing me in the heart over and over again. It hurt my heart and I wanted to scream.

Flashback (8 year old me):
Dad was driving this time,as mom sat next to him and as always she was making jokes and laughing,and I was sitting in a back seat with my older brother Jack.

We were both laughing as our mother was telling us funny stories from when we were little. Jack is 2 years older then me,but it feels like we were twins,we were together all the time,he was always protecting me in school and he is the sweetest and best boy I know.

We have arrived. It was a sunny and a beautiful day at the beach.

The sun was shining the wind was blowing. I was wearing my crocs and I had matching ones with Jack except mine were blue and his were green.

Me and Jack ran to the beach and we jumped in to the water. Ohhh the water was perfect and we started playing in the water. It feelt like a second just passed but it was lunch time. I felt my feet touching the sand and little shells and me and Jack sat next to eachother and he put his hand over me.

It was the safest place I could ever be.

End of flashback:
I felt someone's hand over my shoulder and it was Brad

Brad: you remembered him didn't you,I did too. As soon as we got out of the car It felt like something got over me

Me: HE WAS MY WOURLD AND MY ENTIRE UNIVERSE! I miss him so much...!

Brad: I know baby girl,I know, I miss him too. I mean he was my first best friend and he introduced me to you, remember that...?

I couldn't talk as a normal human because I was crying and sobbing so much,good thing he understood what I was saying

Me: yeah I remember that,we were like 6 years old Jack got back home with you,and we all together started playing tag and... Uhhhhh it hurts for me to even think about him!

Brad: here baby girl

Brad put his arms over my shoulders and put his face right next to my neck. I hugged back,but Brad didn't move his head and I couldn't see him,and then I realized that he started crying. He squeezed me even tighter as I did the same. I heard him sob and I started crying too. We were like that for a while but none of us wanted to let go. And I realized and decided that I'll be sleeping with Brad