I'm beyond confused on what to do now. I obviously want to go but at the same time I don't want to leave. Alyssa got into bed and laid her head on my chest. I wrapped my arms around her.
"I want you to go" Alyssa said
"Lyss" I started to say "I'm going to be-"
She cut me off "I know you're going to be gone for a while. Becoming an actor has always been your dream and if this can help to start that I don't want to be in the way of that."
"Are you sure you want me to go?" I asked
"I'm positive. I want you to be happy even if it makes me upset."
-1 Week Later-
I'm leaving today. I don't know how this is going to go because of what happened last time I left.
"Am I driving you to the airport?" she asked
"No they're sending a car for me." I said as she looked down "Come here"
I pulled her into a bear hug.
"Stop you're going to make me cry" she replied laughing a little "How long will you be gone?"
"3 months" I replied
Then we heard a honking outside. The car was here for me. I said goodbye to the dogs and Alyssa walked me to the car.
"Okay beautiful I guess it's time for me to go" I said
She jumped into my arms.
"I love you" she said
"I love you too. But remember this isn't goodbye. I'll see you soon"
I pulled away and kissed her.
"I'll see you soon babe" she replied
-2 Months- (Sorry for skipping time a lot)
Matt has been gone for two months now but it's starting to get easier. I'm excited because today is the day we are all going to see Shawn on tour.
I showered got out and dried my hair. I lightly curled it and then put makeup on. I decided to wear black high waisted shorts and a long sleeve baseball tee that said "Shawn Mendes" on it. I'm glad I get to see my bestfriend today I just wish Matt could be there with me.
I grabbed the lanyard with the backstage pass and threw it over my neck and then Erin texted me that she was here.
"Hi love" I said getting in the car
"Hey, we have to get Kellie and Tay. Everyone else is meeting us there"
"Let's hit the road" I replied laughing
We got to Kellie and Tay's and they got in the car.
"Hey Mrs. Espinosa" Taylor said
"Hey Tay, go fuck yourself" I said and then started laughing
We blasted Shawn's music all the way to the concert. When we got there we went through the back entrance because we had backstage passes.
I walked up to the security guard and asked "Where can we find Shawn Mendes?"
He pointed down a hall and I saw Shawn, but he was talking to someone.
"Shawn!" I yelled and ran down the hallway.
I jumped into his arms and wrapped my arms around his neck.
"Hi" he said laughing "How have you been?"
"Good, great now! I missed you." I replied
"I know I missed you too." he said and hugged everyone "Wait, where's Matt?"
"You didn't know? He went on tour." I said with sadness
"Aw. Come here" he said holding out his arms
I walked over and hugged him.
"Okay lets not be sad. You have to go out and perform." I said
We all walked to the side of the stage and we watched Shawn perform. All I could think of was Matt. I haven't heard from him in a few days. I decided to send him a quick text to see if everything was all right.
After the concert was over. We all went back to my apartment for a little bit even Shawn. Matt still hasn't answered.
"Have any of you talked to Matt within the past couple of days?" I asked
They all said no. I got up and walked into the bedroom to call him.
(Listen to Distance by Jack and Jack here!)
(Phone Conversation: M-Matt, A-Alyssa)
M-What do you want?
A-What do you mean what do I want? I haven't heard from you in a few days I wanted to talk to you.
M-If I wanted to talk I would have answered your messages. Bye
A-Matt what the fuck? What did I do?
At this point I was screaming.
He hung up. What did I do? I broke down into tears in my room. The door opened and Taylor was standing there.
"Shawn come here" he yelled out the door
Shawn walked in and saw me on the floor. He walked over and sat down next to me, wrapping his arms around me. I just cried into his chest.
"What happened?" he asked me
"Matt and I got into a fight. I didn't even do anything and he is pissed at me for some reason" I said
Shawn didn't say anything he just hugged me and rubbed my back.
"Shawn, I don't know if I can do this anymore" I said "You know, be with Matt. He is supposed to make me feel happy but I always end up crying."
-1 Hour Later-
Everyone was gone except for Shawn. I was shaking in his arms.
"You need to calm down, you're going to make yourself sick and I can't stand to watch you like this. It hurts me too, when you're upset. Just breathe."
He picked me up and put me into my bed. "Whatever you decide to do, I'll support you no matter what. I'll be home before you know it and then we can have some best friend time. I love you" he said
"I love you too"
He kissed me on the forehead and left. Erin had told me before she left that I could move in with her and I'm going to. I can't take this shit with Matt anymore. I grabbed my phone and texted Matt.
A-Listen I don't know what is going on with you but I'm done. DONE. I'm tired of being hurt by you and then you apologizing and me just accepting it. I can't do this anymore. I'm moving out so by time you get back I'm not going to be here. I guess thanks for the good times we actually had. Bye.
Okay I'm going to try and do a few big chapters today and tomorrow because I start school Wednesday :(. Is anyone going to Reality Dance Jam Tour on Long Island/
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bully | matt espinosaFanfiction
Alyssa is a sixteen year old girl who gets bullied by a guy who used to be her best friend. Will Alyssa forgive Matt or will things just get worse for her?