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It's been seven minutes now since I lost my way
Just seven minutes ago I lost the love of my life, the boy I was meant to spend my life with.
It doesn't seem that long, but my whole world has changed
Everything's falling apart without you by my side and it's been 7 minutes. Ryan Beaumont you were my world now it's gone. I have to find a new world, someone who can take your place but that's not possible.
It's in all the little things, when you smile, now it stings
I look at old pictures and see your smile. That smile use to be what I loved now it burns. Seeing your smile hurts me, it reminds me of what I lost.
It's been seven minutes since I lost the boy of my dreams
Seven minutes ago you said that we were over. I messed up and now everything's over. Ryan I loved you so damn much and you just walked away.
It's been half an hour now since I dropped you home
Driving home a house that's empty without you around. The boys are going to be so confused, I left you back with your mum and brothers. You said you couldn't bear to have to share a room with me tonight. I don't know what we are going to tell the roadies.
And I'm driving past the places we both know
Past the bar that we first kissed and that movie that we missed
That bar that we confessed our love to each other.  You super drunk not realizing what you were saying, I knew it probably meant nothing. But in the morning when I confessed to you what you told me, you cried and said everything was right. Right then and there you told me you loved me but couldn't have me. Right then and there our worlds collided and we became each others.  Oh how I want to go back to the nights we would sneak out to watch movies. The only place we could openly be together without Blair or the boys knowing. Back to the days when we would sit on the bus and steal cuddles. Back to when we were happy
'Cause we were hanging out in the parking lot
When ever we travelled anywhere the boys always had to use the toilet way too many times. So we would just sit together and talk about everything and nothing. Just us to hanging out while the rest of band was doing whatever. The nights when we would go on the rooftop and I would be sacred to fall but you told me that we would be okay.
Now I sink a little deeper, think a little clearer
Looking at myself through these new-found eyes
Now I know that I have to live my life without you. As I'm sitting in my car not wanting to enter the house to tell the boys. I don't want us to be the reason this band ends, we have to find a way to deal with each other no matter how hard it's going to be.
Is it too late to turn around?
I'm already halfway out of town
Now I know how I let you down
Oh, I finally figured it out
I wanted to be go back and run into your arms and tell you that I still love you. I want to make this right but I don't know how to Ryan. The more I drive away the more I want to go back to the day we first met. Just me and you in the band singing silly songs on the stairs, nothing but us. Now I ruined it I've ruined everything we had.
I forgot to love you, love you, love you
I forgot to love you, love you, love you
How could I be so stupid and forget that you needed me. I was so caught up in my own problems to see your sadness.
Radio was playing songs for me and you
"Chasing Cars" reminds me of nights in your room
Nights when we would watch movies and I would always fall asleep. The nights when we would sit in perfect silence, listening to your steady heartbeat. Nights when the music would blare through our ears as we kiss slowly and passionately. The nights when it was me and you, when everything was easy and you were mine.
Drinking wine under your window, back when love was so damn simple
How the hell did I end up losing you?
Wine, the drink when you would let yourself lose after a few drinks. When we would get so drunk in your bedroom because why the hell not. Nights when we would have to go to the studio the next day but we didn't care. When everything we did was perfect because it was just us. How did I let that all slip out of my hands?
Is it too late to turn around?
I'm already halfway out of town
Now I know how I let you down
Oh, I finally figured it out
I've wanted to go back and hold you, to never let you leave me again. I want to go back to the nights when it was us and no one else. I miss you already and I'm not even close to home.
I forgot to love you, love you, love you
I forgot to love you, love you, love you
I forgot to love you, love you, love you
I forgot to love you, love you
How the hell did I forget about you. How could I have forgotten to love you, when you were the best thing in my life. You always will be the best thing in my life.
If I came back now would you still be there?
If I come around, would you even care?
If I came back now would you still be there?
If I come around, would you even care?
All these questions and I have no answer. I want to run into your arms again. I want you to hold me and never let go, I want your love back. Do you want me back, because I would die to have you again.
Is it too late to turn around?
I'm already halfway out of town
Third person POV
Just then Andy turned his car back around not thinking about anything. He drove the 2 hours to go pick rye up and to hold him like never before. Does this even matter to Ryan? As he arrived he saw a fragile Ryan laying outside asleep on the steps.
Andys POV
There he was my love laying sleepless on the hard stairs. As I carefully walked over to him carefully shaking him awake. Ryan has his tear stained cheeks, oh how I hated seeing him like this. He finally got up and without thinking rye placed his head in my lap. So confused we were fighting just an house later, about nothing important but it tore us both apart. How I missed this boy in so little time. How could I forget to love you? As rye soon woke up he carefully sat up and placed his cold hands on my cheeks. With all this stress I'm his head he slowly placed a deep and passionate kiss on my lips. That's when I know I would live this not forever no matter what problems we were going through.

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