I swear that I will come back from this one
And if we fall asleep in the backseat of your car
We'll wake up in the snow and bury all our trouble
Waking up next to Niall was always something I loved to do, but waking up alone to the sounds of someone crying wasn't exactly something I liked. Niall wasn't next to me, the sheets almost completely cold. The crying wasn't Blake's, and if I wasn't mistaken it was coming from the bathroom.
"Ni? Babe?" I climbed out of the warm bed, walking slowly to the bathroom door. When I tried to turn the doorknob it was apparent the door was locked. The only sound I could hear from the other side was Niall crying.
"Niall? Baby what's wrong?" He didn't answer me, making the fear and dread in my stomach get worse. I tried the door again in hopes that he'd unlocked it but I wasn't that lucky.
"Niall, please open the door."
"I'm sorry Harry." He whimpered out, his voice broken and hard to hear through the door.
"For what? Baby you don't have anything to be sorry for... Baby please..."
"It hurts. Harry it hurts."
"What hurts? Niall open the door..." He was silent for a moment, his sobs the only sound that filled the room besides our breathing. I was still holding the door like it was a lifeline, something wasn't right and I was scared of what it might be.
"I don't want you to see it." My blood ran cold, the urge to get into that room almost overwhelming. I started to push against the door, biting my lip as I realized he wasn't going to unlock the door.
He didn't want me to see.
And it was killing me that he was hurting in there and I couldn't help him.
"Yes you can.. baby I'm begging you."
"I can't. I can't let you see it. You'll.. You'll hate me again and you won't want to be with some stupid depressed kid who can't even seem to have a good day anymore. It's best if I just... If I just make it easier on you and not be here anymore."
"Fuck. Niall please." I was crying by this point, my body leaning against the door for support.
"I'm sorry..." I don't really know when I let go of the door, or when I found myself grabbing my phone from the pocket of my pants that I'd worn the night before.
Somehow my fingers dialed the only person who could help me
Even if I hated it sometimes.
"Alex... I need your help."
It didn't take him long to get there, probably breaking a few speeding laws while he was at it but I didn't care. As long as Niall was okay.
"Where is he?" He asked, his voice almost urgent. I pointed at the bathroom door with a shaky finger, biting my lip as I watched helplessly.
"Niall? It's Alex... Can you open the door please?" Alex's voice was soft, the concerned look on his face showing up a little more as the sun began to rise.
"Yes, it's me... I'm here Niall."
"I'm scared Alex."
"I know... It's okay to be scared... Please open the door?"
"I don't think I can... I... I don't want to?"
"Can you at least unlock it? You're scaring me and Harry over here." And to my surprise he did, the click sounding through the room. When Alex finally opened the door I kind of wished he hadn't... There was a lot of blood in the room... And Niall was the source. I felt sick.
I felt guilty.
"I didn't mean to. I didn't mean to." Niall's voice got defensive before he broke into another fit of sobs. He buried his face into his arms, his body shaking violently... All I could do was watch.
Almost like it was some sort of car accident.
I couldn't look away.
Alex was to his side before I could even get over the fact that all I wanted to do was puke. I wanted to help him... but I couldn't.
I fucking couldn't.
"You're okay." Alex chanted over and over again, pulling him onto his lap as Niall continued to cry.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. I didn't mean to. Please don't hate me. Don't hate me." I was so lost in staring at the blood that I didn't realize Niall was looking back at me. I swallowed before finally moving, shocked myself that I could even leave the spot I'd seem to be frozen to. I stumbled to the bathroom, dropping to my knees next to Alex and him.
"I don't. I don't. I can't hate you.. I won't ever hate you. Baby why don't you believe me when I say that?" I touched his face, trying not to let the hurt show when he flinched a little. I looked at Alex with pleading eyes, but all he did was give me a sad smile.
"I love you... I love you so much and it hurts me to see you like this..." I whispered, wiping at my eyes a little. Niall looked away from me, burying his face into Alex's chest.
"Marry me?" I tried, even though I knew that the answer would be no. He didn't reply to me, leaving us all sitting in silence as I just waited.
I wasn't sure how much longer I could do this.
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