A long endless highway, you're silent beside me
I couldn't imagine how you are feeling. This long drive seemed as if it was never ending. 10 minutes turned into 30 minutes which turned into an hour "are we almost fucking there" I shouted to one of the people helping you. I didn't mean to shout I can't help it I'm so scared Andy. "I'm sorry sir a few more minutes" "sorry mam I didn't mean to yell at you, I just need my Andy to be alright"
Drivin' a nightmare I can't escape from
This is my fault isn't it, this nightmare isn't going to end.
Helplessly praying, the light isn't fadin'
Hiding in the shock and the chill in my bones
I couldn't show my emotions to anyone. I needed to stay strong for you because I knew you wouldn't want me to cry.
They took you away on a table
When we arrived at the hospital they told me to unlatch our hands. I let go as they took you away. This is the part when I breakdown. To see you fading away in the distance, that might be the last time I see your beautiful face. As the tears trickle down my cheeks, the boys arrive. They trey to comfort me but nothing is help me.
I pace back and forth as you lay still
I couldn't sit still I need to know you are okay. Overnight I stayed in the waiting room, I waited to hear any news.
Doctor: Andy Fowler's family please
Rye: that would be me sir
Doctor: are you Andys immediate family
Rye: no I'm Ryan Beaumont ants boyfriend, he's the love of my life. Soon to be my fiancé, sir I have the ring with me. Please no one else is here to see him||I try to say between sobs
Doctor: I'm not suppose to let anyone in besides family, but because I trust that you love Andy I will make an exception
We walked for what seemed like forever til finally I ran into your room to see you on the table.
I pull you in to feel your heartbeat
I ran as quick as possible to you. I hugged you and grabbed you hand as tight as possible
Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
"Please Andy baby wake up, I believe in you. Andy live squeeze my hand if you can hear me." To that a slight squeeze was put in my hand. I knew my Andy was going to be okay
I swear to love you all my life
I promise you Andy I am not leaving this bedside until you wake up
I don't wanna let go
I know I'm not that strong
I wont allow you to leave me like this. "Please don't let go be strong for me love." As I whisper sweet nothing into Andys ear I hear a soft voice
Saying baby, let's go home
"B-b-baby" " yes Andy my love you are okay" he did it he awoke slightly. Suddenly bursting up to get the doctor. I grabbed him a drink of water. He gulped it like he has never before.
Andy: "Ryan I love you" just then I cut him off by placing my puffy lips upon his soft ones. He was all I needed.
Let's go home
Yeah, I just wanna take you home
Suddenly I was awoken from my dream of Andy waking up. He was still next to me lifeless on the table. "Babe Andy please wake up, I want to go home with you by my side"
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Please Andy I need you still, come back I still love you. "Andy I was gone all that time at night because I was planning on proposing to you the most romantic way I knew how. Andy please wake up I need to be with you for the rest of my life"
4 days later and Andy hasn't woken up as the doctor undid all of his wires. Ryan stood eyes on the boy he loved, the boy of his dreams gone forever. Andy lost his fight, rye would never get to propose to him and Andy would never know how much Ryan loved him.
*authors note: damn you guys I cried writing this. Hold on is a such a heart wrenching song to me. I always relate it to my best friend who committed Suicide so this really touched home. How did you like Ryes little dream of Andy waking up. I couldn't end it happy of course. Please leave me suggestions on how to write better or maybe some ideas for the future*