Bc of the chapter number i thought i would insert some fluff[???] lol (bc i dont think smut is appropriate for this scenario and I'm shit at writing it.) Enjoy?
H A R R Y ' S P O V
"Louis..." I breathe out, lacing my fingers with his.
"Hi Haz." He replies, tears building up in his eyes.
"Don't cry babe." I wipe a stray tear away from his face.
"Im sorry i failed you. I'm sorry I didn't die." He whispers, looking down at his bandaged arms.
"I'm sorry I always mess up. You were happy before I came with my problems, I made you sad too, and you shouldn't be sad, because you don't deserve that. I'm a burden to you, and to be honest I don't even know why you haven't left me yet.
I'm such a fuck up, my depression is bound to stay so it's not even worth staying around me anymore.''
Does he really think that lowly of himself?
I stroke his hand, not knowing what to say.
"Why didnt you let me die?" Louis whispers.
"What do you mean? Lou I love you,.I would never. I sent Liam, because i didn't want you to die."
"But i want to."
Suddenly two doctors come in telling me they have to do check-ups to find out when Louis will be allowed out, and how long he'll have to be on suicide watch.
I squeeze his hand reassuringly, and send him a small smile at which he just looks stone-faced.
Then I walk away, back to my lonely apartment with Liam. (for emotional support you know)
____the next day____
"Haz?" Louis asks, as i stroke my thumb over his hand.
"I'm sorry for yesterday. I was just disappointed it didn't work. It feels like no one likes me, or that nobody would care if I died... I knew there would be two people that cared, and that was you." he says.
"who's the second person?" I ask, as he didn't say two people.
"my mum." His words come out as barely a whisper, but even then you can hear his voice crack.
i squeeze his hand in reassurance.
"Lou, of course your mum would have missed you, I would have missed you. Heck, a lot of people would have, and have missed you while you were out."
I pull my phone out of my pocket, open Twitter, to show Louis all of the dm's I got sending Louis love.
"Look Lou, they love you, and they care a lot. A lot more than you think they do."
I start scrolling through some of the messages people sent, until I stumble upon one that says exactly how I feel about Louis, and that shows exactly how much some people love him.
"Hi Harry! I know you probably won't see this, but if you do, remember to tell Louis you love him a lot, and that so many people care for him. Maybe you can even show this dm thing for proof 🤷♀️ anyway I just really hope everything turns out well for both of you!
Sending you so much love!! 💖❤️💓💕" I read out loud.
"Wow." Louis gapes.
"Proof or it didn't happen." He jokes.
I smile to myself, thinking how the Louis we all know, and love is slowly coming back.
"I love you." Louis says as he laces his fingers with mine, and rests his head on his pillow, slowly dozing off into a soft sleep.
"I love you too." I reply in a whisper, as not to wake up the older boy.
And he wasn't lying. He really loved one boy by the name of Louis William Tomlinson.
Ew okay, I'm getting vibes that this is shitty, but I reallllly hope it's not (lol it probably is)
I hope you've all had a wonderful day, because mine was alrighT
Cried a biT, waS vERy emoTioNaL
But it was okiii
Anyway I'm really annoying, and I'm sorry this took FOREVER to post. I'm actually finishing this off in bed on my iPad lol, I just finally got some inspiration, and I fiNaLLy finished this chapter off.
Anyway I'll stop making you read this much (if you even did lmao)
HAVE A NICE DAY
-ya boi mAx
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