Chapter Sixteen

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Chapter Sixteen

I will not kiss you,

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

"If you'll excuse me for just one second." Liam said, his voice quiet as he stood up from the table. He didn't take too long to leave, heading straight to the bathroom leaving everyone at the table stunned.

"What's wrong with him?" Michael asked, looking at Luke in hopes that he'd say something.

"I don't know... Maybe he just really needed to go to the restroom?" But Luke didn't look all that convincing.

"Well fuck..." I whispered, shaking my head as I realized that I was probably the only one who cared enough to see if Liam was okay.

"Did you say something Harry?"

"Nah, I'll be right back though... Gotta go urinate and take a shit." I smiled at all of them, disapproving and semi shocked expressions on their faces as I stood up. It didn't take too long to reach the bathroom, nor did I miss the slight sniffling coming from the stall. The bathroom only had one stall, which I guess was good... Kind of creepy and annoying.

"Li? You in here bud?"

"Go away Harry, I don't need your stupid jokes right now." His voice sounded hoarse, coming from the stall in the bathroom. I sighed before leaning against the door so no one could come in.

"Well I was going to ask if you were okay. You left awfully quick back there..."

"No. I'm not okay now get the fuck out and leave me alone."

"Are you crying?"

"Fuck off Harry."

"Cause seriously dude, if you're crying... You know he's not worth it right?" There was a shaky sigh from Liam, one that echoed through the room. It wasn't often Liam cried, but when he did it was hard to listen to it. The only time I'd seen it was when we were six and I killed his first turtle...

"I should. I should know that, but that doesn't stop me from wanting to scream until I can't scream anymore. It doesn't stop me from crying like a fucking teenage girl whose mother said no to a trip to starbucks. It fucking hurts right now and I hate it."

"It gets better."

"That's funny coming from you."

"It's the best thing I can say right now... You told me the same thing once, remember?"


"And you were right, even if it was a bunch of bullshit back then. Everything gets better, even when it doesn't seem like it does. I promise it does..."

"When... When you found out about Niall being with Alex, how did you cope?" I took a deep breath, all the anger that I'd been keeping underneath where that was concerned slowly coming back. My hands gripped into fists, and I wanted nothing more than to punch the wall next to me. That would hurt though and I have more logic than that.

"I didn't." My voice was laced with anger, and I had to keep reminding myself that it would hurt if I hit something...

We don't need that kind of pain.

Besides, Niall would ask about it and that's a conversation I don't feel like having.

"You acted like it didn't mean a thing to you though..."

"That's because I didn't show it, on the inside I was falling apart a little more every day... but at that time I knew that Alex was what Niall needed so I... I told myself that eventually everything would be better, and look at me now." I knew he couldn't see me, but that didn't stop me from gesturing to myself.

"I just... Does it ever stop hurting though? I guess that's what I've been meaning to ask you."

"Honestly? No, there are sometimes when it hits you full force out of nowhere... but you just have to remember that it's not the same anymore. You're a strong guy Liam, and just because you've fallen in love with a dick doesn't mean you have to be unhappy." Liam finally walked out of the stall, his eyes red and swollen but he was still wearing a smile.

"Honestly I would just prefer to die alone with Timmy. Timmy would be my buddy and we would be happy... all by ourselves."

"Zayn's single."

"So?" Liam looked at me like I was crazy, not that I was really all that offended by it cause... Let's be honest here, I get it a lot.

"Date Zayn."

"What if I don't want to?"

"Date Alex then."

"Maybe I want to die alone."

"Well then die alone."

"Man that's the advice of the century right there."

"It's what you wanted to hear."

"I don't really know what I want to hear anymore."

"Well how about I tell you to suck it up and go face Luke like a man."

"I would tell you that you're an asshole."

"That's a compliment right there."

"Of course it is." Liam rolled his eyes at me giving a sigh as there was a knock at the door.

"Do I look okay?"

"You look like you just bawled your eyes, but we can pass it off as an allergy attack."

"Harry? Liam? Everything okay in there?" Niall's voice sounded through the door, earning yet another sigh from Liam. I opened the door to be greeted by a semi concerned Niall.

"Everything's fine babe." I kissed his cheek as we exited the restroom. Liam followed close behind us as we headed back to the table. Luke was pretty much on Michael's lap, while Louis and Calum were playing with each other's hands.

"I don't know about you guys... but I'm starving." I said, sitting down in my original spot.

"What's wrong with your face Li?" Louis asked, making me want to smack that mother right up the head.

"Allergy attack, what's wrong with yours?"


I probably won't be updating again for a little while. I'm like 99.9% sure my laptop has a virus and I'm updating this from my phone right now and bleh.

I also cut my toe and it hurts really bad :(

Connie is having a rough day/night and school didn't even happen today.

I would dedicate to someone but like I said I'm on mobile so this chapter is dedicated to all you beautiful readers.

I love you all xx





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