I woke up out of my sleep. When I looked at my phone the time read 2:15 am. When did I fall asleep? I rubbed my head in confusion. The last thing I remember was Harry. Harry... Omg, Harry! He touched me. When I say touched me I don't mean a friendly pat on the back. He touched me down there.
I know for a fact that it was not a dream. I was mad at him then, he touched me. I hate to admit this but, it felt so good. like really good. His hands were like magic dancing against... oh God, what am I saying? This is not okay. This is inappropriate and absurd. I feel violated and gross. This is not what brother and sister do. What was I thinking? No one has ever made me feel that way before. Eww, now things are going to be even weirder than they were before. OMG! Harry gave me my first... I can't even think about this.
Is this what Nina was talking about when she said that it would change me forever? That I'd crave that feeling for the rest of my life. This has to stop. this cannot be a thing. I can't let this whatever this is go on any longer. I need to have a serious talk with Harry. We need to set some boundaries. Ugh, I feel so bad. I mean, sometimes I used to think about Harry that way but I never thought that we'd actually do something like that.
There's no way that I could go back to bed now. I need to talk to Harry right now. I sat up and threw the blankets off of my body. I stopped quietly across the hall with a determined look on my face. If Harry thought I was mad before well, now he has another thing coming. I knocked on the door, lightly so that I wouldn't disturb my parents. I'd be very awkward explaining to my mom my reasoning for knocking on Harry's door at 2:00 am in the morning. I didn't receive a response so I turned the knob. When I opened the door I was met with darkness. before I could turn on the light his voice startled me.
"How'd I know it was you?"
I gulped. "I didn't know you were still awake," I whispered.
I could see his shadow sit up as he reached over to the nightstand and turned on the light. The small lamp illuminated the dark room enough for us to see each other. his curls were messy. His cheeks were red along with the tip of his nose. His eyes squinted due to the pitch black room now being acquainted with light. The determined attitude I once had faded into butterflies.
"So, can I ask why you're awake and in my room at this hour?"
All of the feelings I've had before were long gone at this point.
"I was actually coming to see if you were going to school tomorrow? You haven't been in a while, Harry."
"I doubt that you're that concerned about my education to wake up in the middle of the night and ask me if I'm going to school tomorrow."
I stared down at the fluffy, pink socks on my feet.
"yes, I'm going. If I want to get a decent score the S.A.Ts next month then I guess I better take my ass to class."
I couldn't tell if he was being sarcastic or not. "Yeah, that'd be a good idea," I added. It grew uncomfortably silent.
"Anything else?" he said with an annoyed tone.
'Why did you touch me?" I blurted. He seemed wide awake once those words left my mouth. "What do you mean?" he said. "You know what I mean Harry. Why did you touch me?" I interrogated. He sighed. "I can't answer that."
"Because...Because I don't know!" he said frustrated.
I felt awkward and I wanted to end this conversation as quickly as I started it. Why did I bring this up in the first place? Why am I even in his room right now?
"Why do you ask so many questions?" Harry said interrupting my thoughts.
I shrugged. "Well excuse me for trying to figure out why my stepbrother sexually assaulted me."
He looked at me with a look of disbelief. "Are you fucking serious right now? I can already tell that this was obviously a mistake that I know not to make again, seeing how you're making such a big deal out of it."
"Harry, this was my first time doing something like this with someone! It's obviously a huge deal to me!"
"Shhhhh! keep your voice down." He demanded.
He is such a douche bag.
He stood up and walked towards me, backing me up against the door. His tall frame stood over my small one making me feel even smaller. He leaned down so that our faces could be on the same level.
"You liked it." he declared.
I gulped. "What? No, I didn't." I squeaked.
"Yes you did," he whispered. "You loved it when I rubbed my fingers in slow circles on your clit. You were so wet for me baby. Your shaking legs said otherwise."
I felt my neck get hot and I felt my face getting warm as I was filled with embarrassment. My voice was at the bottom of my throat along with my confidence as it became a lump that was too hard to swallow. He placed his hand down there again and used his thumb to rub slow steady circles. My eyes rolled back and I started to see stars. I thrust my hips into his hand to receive more fiction. He chuckled at this.
The feeling abruptly stopped. I looked at him with confusion. "Why'd you take your hand away?" I whined.
"Because I don't want to sexually assault you, remember?" he mocked.
I huffed. "That is so..."
"What?" he asked. "That is so what?"
I rolled my eyes and glared at him. He laughed.
"Whatever, I'm out of here." I turned around grabbed the door handle to leave without looking back. I walked across the hall and went back to my bedroom. I'm and so tired of Harry making a fool out of me. Just wait until tomorrow. He has another thing coming.
I slipped back into bed and went back to sleep. If Harry wants to play games the two can play at this game.
I wrote half of this chapter with a toothache. You're welcome........ but no um, I love you guys and I'm dying in school and right now with my tooth. I really need to calm down with the sweets. I just bought an lb of lemon candy and that probably not good. hope you enjoyed the chapter. I enjoy yall's comments because they give me life. much love.
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