Part 30

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**Alyssa's POV**

I stood there for a few minutes hoping he would change his mind and come out, but he didn't.  I wanted to crawl into my bed and never come out.

I got back in my car but waited to drive. My tears made my vision blurry. I started to drive but I didn't go home.  I pulled into Shawn's drive way and ran to the door. I knocked and he opened it a few seconds later. I guess I was expecting him to be fine but he wasn't. His eyes were red and puffed like mine.

I just wrapped my arms around him and cried into his chest.

"I know" he said and then he started crying

Erin leaving hit him hard too. We went inside and watched TV. I got a text from Kristen.

(K-Kristen, A-Alyssa)

K- Do you want to come have dinner with us later?

A- No thanks. I'm at Shawn's and being around you guys would probably make me sadder. Love you

K-Okay love you too

*2 Hours Later*

I decided to go home, I was tired and I wanted to check on the dogs. I heard them barking when I walked up to the door. When I shut the door Burnie walked over and sat in front of it waiting for Matt.

"He's not coming back" I said as if Burnie could understand what I was saying

I walked into our room and changed into the hoodie and sweatpants Matt left for me. I saw an envelope on the bed with my name on it.

(Listen to The Weight by Shawn Mendes now!)

I opened it up and there was a letter inside:

Dear Lyss,

I need you to know before you start reading this how much I love you. I love you so much, you are my sunshine and you are my world. You are the air that I breathe, without you I feel like I am suffocating. You mean so much to me but I think we both know how long distance relationships don't really work. I know I should have told you this in person but I couldn't. I couldn't stand to see your heart break. I love you more then anything and you made me feel like the happiest guy in the world. But at the same time I also know how it feels to wait for someone and I can't put you through that. So as much as it kills me the best thing for us is to not stay together and when I get back if you haven't found someone else we can try and work things out. I'm already missing you. No matter what happens I'll always love you.

Love you,


My heart just shatterted into a million pieces. The guy who made me feel like the happiest person ever just broke my heart. I texted him.

(A-Alyssa, M-Matt)

A-Please, no

M-It's better for you. I promise I will always love you even if you find someone else, I'll love you

A- Don't do this to me please

M- I love you

A-I love you too

I wanted to go to bed and never wake up. What if he meets someone else? I had a millon thoughts running in my head. My head was pounding and I felt like I was going to be sick. Enough tears poured out of my eyes to make a river.

I just wanted to be surrounded by everything that reminded me of him. I had on his clothes and my infinity ring. I called Ace and Burnie into our room and went to bed wishing I wouldn't wake up.

Okay so you probably weren't expecting that! I'm planning on at least one more chapter tonight!



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