*TRIGGER WARNING*  This chapter contains dark thoughts and Suicide. If you are easily triggered by either of these please do not read this chapter! 


I left it about 20 minutes before calling Derek. "Hey, Layla?" He answered.

"Hey Derek. I was wondering, can I meet you somewhere? I need to speak to you?"

"Oh, really? Sure. Where do you want to meet?"

"Just meet me by the beach. I just have to talk to you. Leave now and I'll meet you there in 10 minutes." He just said "ok" and I heard him leave.

I ran up the stairs to Ryan. "Babe, I'm going out for a while, I'll be back in about 2 hours." He said ok and I left. I got in my car as my dad was just coming out. "Layla! Where you going?"

"I'm just going to the beach for a while to meet Nicole." Nicole was my best friend; she had come round here a few times so I was sure he would believe me. "Ah, ok. Have fun!"

Ten minutes later, I arrived at the beach and saw Derek stand against his car with one leg resting against the tyre and had his hands in the pockets of his jeans. He looked so good. He had a misfits T-shirt on, and I must say. Dayum! It fits him well!

I realised what was happening at this point...I think I still like Derek.

"Hey, Layla!" He said, seeing me and smiling. I ran up to him and wrapped my arms round him. I felt him wrap his arms round my waist and bury his head in my neck. I looked up into his eyes; he looked at me in a way he has never looked at me before, a more...loving way. After staring into my eyes for around 3 seconds, he pressed his lips against mine. It was just like our first kiss together. But a lot more romantic! "Layla, I have been falling for you more and more each day since the first day I laid eyes on you. I know we could never be together because you are marrying Ryan, but please tell me you do still feel something for me." He said to me, I couldn't help it...

"I do, I love you Derek!" To be honest, I didn't know what I was saying, but it felt right. I am in love with Ryan. But I know Derek would never hurt me. I actually think I am in love with him again. He stopped kissing me on the lips and started kissing down my neck. "Derek, do you want to recreate the night we first got together?" He clearly knew what I meant, but I knew he was thinking deeply about it.  "Layla, I would give anything to spend at least the night with you. But we can't. Ryan is like a brother to me. I couldn't sleep with his fiancée!"

"Derek, please. I love you! ...I want you!" I said biting my lip, I stared into his eyes and pulled at his shirt slightly.


I wish I could spend the night with her, I love her so much! She said she wants me and I was so desperate for her, but I couldn't. I shouldn't even be doing this with her now. But she's so irresistible. "Baby, please? I want you so bad!" She said. I didn't know what to do. Should I go with what I feel and try to get Layla back... "Layla, I love you, and if you really love me as much as you say you do, then you will try to be with me, even if at first its behind Ryan's back. I love you so much and I don't want to let you go again. I want to be with you, but while you are still with Ryan, I don't think we should...you know..."

"Oh...Ok, sure."

"But! We can only be together if you promise to break up with Ryan eventually..."

"Of course baby!" She said as she leaned up and kissed me. "I love you!"

"I love you too."

"Do you wanna go sit down on the beach for a while?" I asked her. She just nodded and smiled.

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