Soft Tears ◇ SoKi

1.05

Soul's pov

"Kidd, you're obviously not just fine. For Death's sake you're crying and your aura is way darker than usual. And the fact that the symmetry is broken for you and you don't seem to care worries me." I spoke in a concerned manner while I sat on the floor in front of Kidd, who had his legs crossed on the couch.

"Why are you suddenly so worried about me? Aren't you supposed to be the chill guy with the preppy girlfriend?" Kidd choked on his words as he cried a little more but fought by gripping his knees.

"I've always been worried. I just don't show it. And I know I have a preppy girlfriend and sure I'm chill but I'm still pretty damn fucked up. You're talking to the one who has black blood in them." I stood up and sat next to Kidd who looked a little better but still pretty damn fucked up in the head. The room was silent except for the small shaky sighs that escaped out of the boy with black and white striped hair. "Look dude, you don't have to tell me now but you have to at some point." I spoke once more hoping that Kidd would respond.

"Literally I have no excuse for why I feel worthless. I honestly just think it is one of the consequences of being the son of the Grim Reaper." He just smiled and looked down. it hurt me, I didn't know if I wanted to slap him or squeeze him. Or maybe both.

••••••• (time skip because fuck it :3)

Kidd's pov

(Italic writing means in their head.)

'Maybe Soul has always cared.'

I got out of my bed and made sure Soul was still sleeping. He was, he looked so peaceful and calm, something that never shows when he's awake. As I get back into focus I notice my clock reads 2:00am and I continue to get out of bed and walk to my bathroom. As I entered my black and white bathroom I closed the door and slid down the door. I grab my hair and cry.

'Look at you. You are ridiculous. what are even crying about, you really are asymmetrical garbage'

"SHUT UP!!! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" I screamed at myself and brought my knees to my chest. And at that moment I heard Soul get out of his bed and knock on my door.

"Kiddo? Actually no..." Soul Evans paused and soon enough there's a scythe in my door that's completely destroying the wood. I knew what he was doing. Actually maybe I didn't- "Death the Kidd, I swear to god if you don't open the damn door imma have to completely break it. So stand up and open it." Evans spoke with a stern voice and he was just jerking the doorknob over and over.

'If you let him in, he'll see how week you are. But you'll get help'

I don't like making decisions like this. I like being alone, but right now I just wanted a hug. Though honestly Soul probably won't even hug me, or at least I don't think he would. I could just stand up and let him in. But do I really want to? No. Not really. Well yeah I do but I'd rather him fight for me. You know, to see if he actually cares or if he is going through some phase.

*crash* (and at this moment Soul broke down the door)

"Ya know, I didn't want to break down the door, but here I am." Soul sarcastically spoke with his hand rubbing his forehead, and put his scythe arm away. "So you are going to tell me what's going on, correct?" He looked down at me and I just looked back down into knees, but he was quick to raise my chin upward.

"Soul, I don't want to tell you what is wrong with me because I think you will look down upon me. And I know that's stupid. But I do have a reason or actually a few reasons as to why I have been feeling more depressed than usual." Soul removed his hand from my chin when I finished speaking.

I finally gave in, and honestly my chest felt like a weight had just been lifted off. But I still had to share my reasons. and I could tell Soul wanted every single detail, and with that he sat crisscrossed on the floor across from me.

"Tell me in order. The order of reasons, what caused what." Soul sighed out and put his arms above his head to further relax. And he just waited for my response.

"Well it started out when... umm..." i felt my blood go into my cheeks and I couldn't get the words out of my mouth. But I continued once I saw Soul waiting. "...when you and Maka started dating... and then my sadness and anger had grown when we had killed the kishin, because my father told me that the kishin was actually my brother..."

"The Kishin, was your b-brother?" Soul stuttered and widened his eyes as I just nodded. "And why would me and Maka dating make you sad?"

Then it hit me. I was jealous. well actually I just had a big crush on Soul but I denied my feelings. But as soon as him and that blonde mister started dating, my heart always felt like a lemon that was getting crushed and squeezed.

"isn't it obvious soul? Why would someone get sad when another person becomes taken?" I honestly held back my anger and Soul looked a little less confused.

"What? Are you sad because you're still single? Or is it something else?" Soul rolled his eyes and continued, "or are you jealous?"

then my heart stopped. I felt like my stomach was about to swallow itself. I wanted to hide. hide from my reality and hide from the truth.

"Soul, I am jealous. And I can't help but feel jealous." I spoke with a clear and cold voice.

"Why would you be jealous?"

"Soul. you are kinda dumb." I chuckled and he raised his eyebrow.

"why are you jealous?" He questioned me once more but this time it sounded demanding.

"because I-" I sighed and rubbed my temples to calm down, "because I like you." And with that I stood up and went back to bed. My movement was stopped by someone grabbing my hand though.

"you like me?" He said, and I faced him and my eyes glistened with water.

"I always have." I pulled my hand away and hid in my room...

Soul's POV.

how long has he liked me? and why? I didn't know he wasn't straight. Sure I always thought he was bisexual or something but I never thought he would like me.

I watched him walk to his room, and I had this urge to go and hug him or something, but I knew that would only worsen the situation. I wanted to go check on him but I just stood in the hallway in front of the bathroom looking dazed. the urge inside of me grew larger and soon enough I just walked to his room and opened the door without knocking. and I saw him, shocked and looking at me while standing by his window. the urge inside of me took control of me. I walked over to him and could see his eyes pooled up with tears. and then the urge took over. I landed my lips onto his. Kidd was shocked but kissed back, I didn't stop, but soon enough he pushed away red as ever. and I too was red.

"What was that for?" Kiddo looked at me with his golden eyes.

"I just felt like it needed to happen I guess"

1309 words
aight to be continued

-karma.