PLAYLIST(requested, these are just a couple of the songs I listen to while writing. Don't know if I'm gonna continue this?) Cage the Elephant - Come a little closer, Cold War Kids- Loner Phase
- Caspar's POV -
Troye walked in to the room, in awe. My head was shifting around, my eyes darting from side to side.
"Caspar? What are you doing?" Troye's voice trembled in fear.
"I'm looking for Joe." I answered, breathlessly.
"He just left..." Troye's voice trailed off, as he took slow small steps towards me.
"That's not Joe. That's not my Joe." I answered, finally stopping my wandering eyes to look Troye in the eyes.
"I don't think that Joe is going to come back for a while." Troye answered. As he said that it occured to me that he had probably heard everything.
"I'll wait." I answered, tears spilling out of my eyes.
- Disney Day 2 -
"Ring around the rosy, pocket full of posy, ashes, ashes," I heard Joe singing, as he ran circles around me.
"Joe... please stop, I can't breathe. I'm too dizzy, Joe." I pleaded, trying to pull my eyes away from him, but I couldn't. And as he continued running, I contined dying.
"We all... fall.." a slow grin spread across Joe's face.
"Don't let me fall, Joe. Don't let me fall," I reached out a hand towards him but he was already gone, behind me.
"Down." He hissed into my ear, before I felt strong arms pushing my shoulders into darkness.
I woke up, panting, beads of sweat rolling down my forehead.
"Oh you're up-" Troye stopped midsentance when he saw my face. He took his toothbrush out of his mouth, went back into the bathroom and quickly rinsed out his mouth, "Caspar..." He walked over and wrapped his thin arms around me.
It wasn't until Troye wrapped his arms around me and embraced me in the Troye hug that always seemed to help that I realized the true meaning of inconsolable. Because this time, not even a Troye hug could comfort me. It couldn't save me from Joe. It couldn't save me from myself.
The longer Troye's arms remained around me, the angrier I grew. None of them could help, none of them could make it better, "Get off." I said, extending my arms in front of me, to push Troye off me.
"Caspar. I understand that you're mad. And you feel alone. But you can't push everyone else away. We all need to help. We all need to help Joe, and." He paused, "And you. We need to stick together, because not one of us can do it alone. We can't fall apart. We can't."
I exhaled deeply, "It's all my fault Joe is like this. I don't want us to fall apart. I'm just. Angry. Guilty. Sad."
"We're like a family. And we all could have done something to prevent Joe from becoming this way. We all feel guilty. Caspar. We're here for you." Troye smiled, a fake, but wide smile.
Troye's hugs didn't work anymore, but his words never failed.
"So.. what.. what exactly happened to Joe? His eyes were so dull, and lifeless. I'd never been so frightened. He wasn't possesed, he was still himself. But yet, he wasn't himself at all." I knew it seemed as if I was asking Troye, but I was also asking myself.
Troye shook his head. He didn't know either.
I heard a knock on the door, but Troye got up to answer it. A small piece of me was hopeful. Maybe it was Joe. Maybe he was going to apologize. Maybe-
"Oh, Caspar! You look terrible."
Nope. Definately not Joe.
Zoe, Alfie, Tyler, and Troye all stared at me. I had no words.
"Caspar, how about we finally go to Disney World?" Tyler smiled, "Mama needs some ridess!"
"Yeah, we came here for that, but we've just stayed in the hotel." Troye said, smiling down at me.
They were trying to cheer me up. Trying to distract me from everything. It wasn't working.
"I'm not feeling up to it." I answered, gloomily.
"Caspar puh-leaseeee." Zoe pouted.
"I'm sorry guys." I said, putting my head down, trying not to cry.
"Sitting in here moping isn't going to make anything better." Alfie said. I saw Zoe jab him in the side with her elbow. He shot her a guilty look.
"I know. I know!" I said, fighting back tears, "But I can't go, okay? I'm sorry. Why don't you all go without me?"
"We love you, Caspar." It was one of the rare times I heard Tyler's voice dead serious.
"I love you guys, too. I'm sorry for being so down." I said, forcing a fake grin up at them.
"Sooooo does this mean we're going?" Troye asked, sitting down next to me.
I laughed, but shook my head no.
"I'm serious when I say you guys can go without me though." I said, trying to keep my fored smile on my face.
"Nah, it wouldn't be any fun without you." Zoe said, sitting down on the other side of me.
"Joe will be alright." Alfie said suddenly. Was it really so obvious how much I was worrying about him? Yes, probably.
"Yeah. You'll see Caspar, it'll all work out." Zoe said.
I couldn't help but build up my hope. Maybe it would all work out. Maybe I really was just overreacting. It wouldn't be the first time. I can trust what they're saying. They've never really lied to me before.
"I hope so." I whispered.
"I know so."
"You'll see, Casp."
"It'll all work out, Casp."
"Everything is going to be fine."
"We're here for you."
I had the best friends in the world. And when I heard a knock on the door, I knew there was only one person who could be on the other side. And I couldn't help but be excited.
--A/N Sorry for having nothing Disney in these Chapters. I just honestly completely forgot what Disney had in it etc. So I decided to play it safe and have them not even go there. XD
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