Chapter 17

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- Caspar's POV -

I drove because I knew Joe wouldn't have been able to concentrate. The whole way he was rapidly texting and waiting for a reply from Zoe that never came.

We arrived at the house, and Joe dashed for the door and opened it.

"ZOE?" He called out. I ran up behind him, and tried to comfort him by wrapping my arms around his torso. He completely ignored me.

"ZOE?!" He continued to call checking every room. I stopped him when he was in the guest bedroom.

"Joe calm down for a minute. I can't stand to see you like this. I'm sure Zoe is fine and she's clearly not home right now so let's just try to relax." I said, ad Joe finally made eye contact with me.

He nodded, and fell back onto the bed.

"I don't even know what to think like this is literally my worst nightmare." He blinked, and I could tell he was trying not to cry.

"Awww Joe cheer up. Everything will be fine and worrying won't do you any good. Try to distract yourself." I said, laying next to him.

"And how can I do that?" He asked, turning to face me. I couldn't read his expression.

"Like this." I said quickly, before bringing my arms to his neck pulling his lips to mine. He was hesitant at first, but I felt him loosen up after a few seconds.

He rolled on top of me, and circled his hands over my chest. His lips were moist and soft. He moved them in a rhythm so we could breathe without breaking the kiss.

As he continued to rub my chest, I laced my fingers through his hair. He suddenly broke from the kiss and moaned in my ear.

"You both disgust me." We both sat up in a panic, our gaze shooting over to whoever's voice that was.

"Scott! How the hell- why the hell are you here?" I yelled, "The fuck?"

"You idiot. I hacked your phone Caspar, I can hack anyone's. I managed to get a peek at her IP address and watch her put in her password. I know how precious Zoe is to you both. Maybe even.. More precious than your relationship.

"What are you saying? You have Zoe and you won't let her go until we break up so you can get Caspar?" Joe asked between clenched teeth.

"Ding ding! But only two out of three." Scott smiled. That goddamn smile. It used to be cute but now it was sickening, " You two do have to break up but I'm over Caspar. He's just an annoying loser lowlife."

"You kidnapped my sister just to see us break up?" Joe screamed, clenching his fists angrily.

"Actually I have no intention of keeping Zoe. I just want to talk, and tell you something Joe. I knew you wouldn't give me the time of day unless I did something like this." Scott said, staring at Joe as if I didn't exist. And at that moment, I wished I didn't. I knew exactly where this is headed.

"Remember when Caspar saved you after you fell from the cliff?" Scott finally looked at me, with an evil grin. I was losing all the color in my face.

"Of course how could I forget?" A smile spread up Joe's face as he turned to look at me. His eyes widened when he saw my face.

"Caspar didn't save you. Instead he stood there for minutes doing nothing. He was a complete coward. It was I who finally jumped in after and walked miles up the inclined cliff to save you." Scott's smile was blinding.

"No..." Joe said, but as soon as he turned to face me once more, he knew it was true.

"And on top of that, he took all the credit for saving you. He couldn't even tell you the truth. He just stood around and got all the glory for my hard work. He really is despicable." Scott said, and with that he turned taking a few steps.

He stopped midstep, "Zoe is in her own closet. She's under sleeping pills but she'll wake up soon. And Joe. If you don't break up with Caspar, have fun with your selfish trash."

Neither Joe or I said a word as Scott exited.

"Leave." Joe's face was scrunched and upset.

"Joe just wait-" I pleaded.

"No. No I'm not going to wait. How could you Caspar?" Joe asked, sounding more disappointed than angry. I would have much rather had an angry Joe than this one though. An angry Joe I knew how to fix at least a little.

"I'm sorry! I froze up and I couldn't move! I was in such shock! I'm not an amazing hero like you, Joe! I'm not good enough-"

"I DON'T GIVE A FUCK THAT YOU DIDN'T JUMP OFF THE CLIFF FOR ME. I mean, it stings a little, and I do wish it was you who saved me but I'm understanding of that part." His voice grew hushed, "I'm mad that you lied to me. So please just leave."

"I've already lost you before I'm not letting you slip away again." I said, standing my ground.

Joe wordlessly made his way to Zoe's room. I followed him and watched as he clicked open the closet door, exposing Zoe's body curled into a tight ball. He carried her bridal style and tucked her into her bed.

He turned, and jumped when he saw me, "You're still here?" He sounded surprised. I couldn't tell if it was a good or bad surprised.

I leaned in and kissed him as passionately as I could, he pushed me off as soon as my lips hit his.

"I love you Joe. I'm sorry Joe. I love you Joe. I'm sorry Joe." I repeated, until I burst into tears.

"I think you should go." Joe said, reaching out to pat my back. But his hand stopped, clenched to a fist and returned to his hide. He pressed his lips together and looked at me. Only he wasn't looking at me at all. He was looking through me.

I wished I had some good reason. something that I could explain. But I just didn't. I missed his touch already.

--A/N I've been feeling like this whole story hasn't been romantic enough so I'm debating how long to keep the fight going.

It's 5am in the morning why am I awake o_- <- literally only one eye open.

BUT ALSO OMFG ALMOST 1k READS. I'm dying omfg.

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