Chapter 5

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I heard the door open and a sympathetic looking Liam walked in and over to me. He sat next to me on the bed pulling me into him as I cried into his chest. He rocked me back and forth shushing me soothingly. After about ten minutes I was able to calm myself and I lifted my head.

“Do you want to talk about it?” He asked me. I really didn’t want to but I knew they’d find out eventually. I nodded bleakly.

“I’m sorry I rushed out. It’s just the siblings questions struck a nerve…


“You’re so dorky!” My eleven year old twin brother Joshua said tickling me. I kept giggling while our mother laughed continuing to drive.

“Josh! Please! Come on! I. Cant. Breath!” I said in between breaths. Josh stopped and I snuggled into my brother. “You two calm down.” My mum said.

“Josh?” I said.

“Yes Annie?” he asked smiling as my head rest on his chest.

“I love you Joshy!” I said giggling.

“I love you too Annie.” He said chuckling. Our mum looked in the rearview mirror at us and just then a car in the wrong lane collided with ours. I screamed and Josh shielded me. That was the last time I saw my brother.


“He died protecting me.” I said the tears falling as I stare at the picture of me and my beautiful twin brother when we were the age of eleven on the beach. His shaggy redish brown hair hung in his face his green eyes identical to mine glowing. His arm around my waist happily as we made silly faces on the Mullinger beach down the road from our home. We always hung out there. It was our favorite spot. Liam had a sympathetic look in his eye.

“My dad was out before Josh and I were even born. It was me and my mum. John could see I was broken. He stepped in. He was like sort of a father figure but not as over protective. I wanted to give up on music. It was a love Joshua and I shared. We were supposed to get here together. Live our dreams together and I didn’t think I could go through with doing this without him. John wouldn’t let me. At the time I couldn’t see that Joshua would want me to keep at it. But John did. He pushed me to continue and look where I am now. I’m in London to record music and living with one of the biggest boy bands in the world! It’s surreal and I just, I can’t help but know that Josh should be here. That we should be doing this together. That’s what my tattoo is for. The day he and I were born and the day he was killed. It’s to make sure I know why I’m here, and why I’m doing this. I love what I’m doing, I do. But in the end I dedicate my music to Josh.” I said and by the end I couldn’t hold back the tears. I was now balling and Liam wrapped his arms around me and I again cried into his chest again. He shushed me and soothed me until I began to calm.

“He would be so proud of you Anna. I just know it.” He said. I raised my head and smiled sadly. His eyes showed how concerned he was.

“Thanks Li. I’ll be fine.” I said but his eyes showed he didn’t believe me. “I promise.” I said reassuringly. I stood up and pulled him up. I decided I shouldn’t keep my memories boxed. I took the picture of Josh and I at the beach and I put it up on my wall. Liam smiled at me and I returned it. He slid his arm around my waist and we walked into the family room and found all the boys anxiously waiting with concerned looks. Niall was pacing and when he saw me he ran over to me and engulfed me in a hug. “Oh my gosh! Anna are you ok? What happened?” He said in a hurry. Once he released me we all sat, me in between Niall and Liam. Liam tightened his grip on my waist as I told the rest of the boys exactly what I told Liam.

“Oh my gosh! Anna I am so sorry for asking you about your siblings!” Harry said his voice full of guilt and sympathy. “Haz, it’s ok. You didn’t know. I’ve never really talked about it with anyone other than Brit, John, and my mum. It’s nice to talk about it. I know now he’d be proud of what I’m doing, making an effort to live my dream. He’d want this for me.” I said reassuringly leaning forward and taking Harry’s hands. He smiled sadly at me. “You really are incredible.” He said pulling me from the couch and into a hug which the rest of the boys quickly joined in. “Hey, I know what will lighten the mood.” I said as we pulled apart. The boys gave me looks asking what I had in mind. “Let’s Skype John and Brit!” I said smiling and grabbing my computer plopping down next to Niall and Liam. I pressed the button and the computer rang out for only a few seconds until the call was accepted.

“ANNA!!!!!!” Brittney and John exclaimed at the same time.

“MY LOVES!” I said giggling. “BRIT!!!”

“ANNA!” She shouted as we both squealed and all of the boys covered their ears.

“What about me Annie?” John asked faking hurt.

“JOHNATHAN SHANE WOODLEY DON’T YOU DARE THINK I DON’T MISS YOU LIKE HELL!” I shouted smiling at John. He chuckled smiling.

“I miss you too babe! Hey we’re at your house! Want to speak to your mum?”

“When aren’t you at my house? And um YEAH!” I said. John chuckled and my mum came into view.

“MUM!” I shouted at the sight of my mum.

“Annie!” She said. “How’s London? Better be nice to those boys or you won’t get on well!”

“London’s amazing! It’s so beautiful here but I already miss home! London’s beaches are nothing compared to Irelands! Of course I’m being nice mum! The little angel I am! I get on really well with Daddy Direction and the leprechaun!” I said gesturing to Niall and Liam.

“OH yes! Such the little angel! I’m making dinner so I have to go love! I miss you Annie! I love you baby girl!”

“Love you too mum! Don’t poison my friends without me there!”

“Oh please! They’re never not here! I have plenty of chances.” She said winking. The three of us rolled our eyes at the same time.

“Bye mum!”

“Ok ok.” She said as she walked to our kitchen and out of the frame. Now I could only see my two best friends.

“Annie,” John said causiouly. “have you really been to the beach?”

“Yes,” I said biting my lip. “It wasn’t the same since it wasn’t that beach.”

“Are you sure you’re ok sweetie? You know Joshua would be proud, don’t you?” He said.

“I know. I’m dealing. It’s never ganna get easier is it?”

“No hunny, it’s not. But just know that he’d want this.” Brittney said.

“I know. I tell myself that everyday.”

“You were telling the truth! They really are hot!” She said lightening the mood.

“Oh yeah, totally!” I said smiling at her and rolling my eyes to the smirking Louis sitting a few feet away.

“YEP! I’M HOTTEST!” He yelled.

“Keep telling yourself that Lou!” Niall said. I broke out into a fit of giggles at all of the boys flexing and saying they were the hottest.

“Right then, we should go. Stay safe please.” I said to my two best friends.

“We will hunny don’t worry!” Brittney said trying to reassure me.

“Brit’s right Annie! You worry too much!” John said.

“There’s a reason for that.” I said and I knew he instantly regretted what he said.

“Annie I’m sorry.” He said his eyes growing sad.

“I know hun. I love you two! Take care of eachother and my mum please! And please please stay safe! I love you!” I said. We exchanged our goodbyes and I clicked off Skype. The boys had now started their own silly conversations and I leaned back on the couch sighing and running a hand through my hair.

“Are you alright love?” Niall leaned over and whispered in my ear. I nodded and sighed again. “Want to go for a walk?” He asked me as the other boys were still engulfed in a conversation, something about Liam’s fear of spoons I think. I nodded and smiled as he slipped his hand into mine and we left the room un noticed by everyone other than Zayn who just smirked. Niall and I walked out of the boys home and down the quiet streets of London hand and hand.

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