My stomach is in knots as I'm waiting for Maggie to come down the isle. Today is rehearsal day because most couples can't sleep in the same room before the wedding but they refuse to let us see each other at all tomorrow instead.
I have a feeling it was mostly Andrews idea so that I wouldn't be in bed with his sister all day.
Ugh what the hell are those females doing i've been standing here for ten minutes. They better not take this long on Monday.
I shift my weight to my other foot.
"You nervous?" Andrew asks besides me.
I sigh. "Absolutely."
Today running through the vows and such should be easy but what about when i'm saying it in front of 50 people. What if I completely mess up and the Reverend is forced to have me repeat all of them again because i'm to stupid to get it right the first time.
I wipe sweat off my forehead and pull my wet shirt off my skin. Why is it so hot today? What if it's this hot on the wedding day. What if I start to sweat through my tux and Maggie sweats in her dress and then by the time he says 'you may now kiss the bride' we're both soaked and Maggie doesn't want to kiss me because i'm so gross.
I groan putting my head in my hands.
It's not that I don't want to get married i'm just worried that something bad will happen in the process of getting married.
Fuck. What about after we're married what if Maggie gets tired of me and asks for a divorce. I won't be able to handle that. I'd fight for her but what if she didn't want me too. What if she took the baby with her and I lost my whole family in a matter of minutes.
Andrews elbow is all of a sudden poking into my side and I look up glaring at him.
"Wh-" I stop as I see Maggie holding onto her dads arm as she stands at the end of the isle. Jenna is already half way down.
I stand up straight as the music starts and she slowly makes her way towards me.
Is it going to take this long for her to get to me on Monday?
My hands twitch and I itch to go to her and take her in my arms.
I'm not used to not being able to touch her any time I want.
Henry kisses Maggie's cheek and hands her to me.
I wipe my sweaty hands on my jeans and then I take both of her hands in mine.
I smile down at her and she smiles up at me.
"Hi Mags." I whisper.
"Hey Jake." She whispers back.
The Reverend clears his throat and starts talking.
She licks her lips.
Oh gosh did she have to wear red today? And those tiny shorts? Her hair falls over her shoulders and over her right ear. The left side pulled up with a red flower.
I love it when she wears red. She shifts to a different foot and I watch as her hips move. I can't help but think about her hips moving over me.
I remember watching her wiggle into those shorts this morning and pulling the shirt over her head.
A strand of hair falls into her face and I move it out of the way.