“Yeah dad?” I asked timidly
“What’s Harry doing here? Last time you saw him, you had just found out about Lilly, did he even know about Lily then?”
If I told Dad Harry knew about Lily all his time he’d have a fit, and I just didn’t want any more drama, I was tired of it all and wanted everything behind me.
“He’s just visiting Dad, and no, you know we broke up before I found out and I never told him, he was going off to pursue his dream, I couldn’t drop that on him” I looked to the ground. Why am I lying to save Harry’s ass.
I heard my dad sigh, “So, what? You end things and now you’re going to let in back into your life, just like that?” I shrugged my shoulders. I didn’t know what to do. I mean, I still love him, I always have despite everything. But nothing would be the same, how could it?
“I don’t know dad, we were just, talking; catching up. He saw me in the crowd yesterday and called me back stage…and now he’s here. I don’t know what is going to happen or if I’ll see him after this” I looked up at my dad. He had a sympathetic smile etched on his face. He knows I was upset when things ended between me and harry, but no one ever knew exactly how upset I really was, or why.
“Ok, sweet heart, just be careful. I’m gunna have to go, I only popped back to get my wallet” he smiled handing me a glass of water which was for Harry.
We walked back into the living room where Harry was sat on the sofa, rolling his phone in his hands.
“Well, it was nice to see you again, Harry. I’ll see you later, Lucy” He placed a kiss to my temple and was about to walk out the door,
“Yeah?” he stopped and turned around to look at me
“You might wanna take your wallet with you this time” I giggled
He chuckled and picked it up off the side, “Thank you, don’t know what I’d do without you, See you around Harry”
“Bye” Harry called out as my Dad left.
I handed the glass of water to Harry. He took it from me with a half-smile and muttered a quiet “Thanks” before taking a sip and placing it on a coaster on the coffee table beside him. I sat down beside him and placed my hands in my lap, not really knowing what to say to him.
“Why are you so nervous around me, Lu?” Harry asked quietly.
“I-I’m not nervous” I looked down at my hands, and unknowingly, I had been fidgeting with them. I instantly stopped once I realised.
“Look at me, please?” his voice had some kind of hurt in it. I hesitantly looked up to meet his gaze. “I’m sorry, ok? I wish I could take this all back and put it right”
“I know, but it still hurts. She’s not gunna come back” my voice almost breaking, tears pinching the back of my eyes. Harry tucked his lips between his lips and sighed as he closed his eyes, like he was trying to calm himself down, to stop himself from crying, maybe? I looked back down to my lap.
“I know she’s not, but just give me a chance to make things right with us. I’ve regretted letting you go since the moment it happened. I-I just, I don’t know how I could have been so stupid to let the best thing in my life slip through my fingertips”
You always did have a way with your words didn’t you, Harry? I could feel the small smile tugging at the corners of my lips. But part of me just screams, “They’re only words and empty promises that have no meaning”. But I’m just lost for words.
Harry placed his hand over mine in my lap, squeezing them slightly. I look back up and he has tears in his eyes.
“I don’t know what else I can say to make you realise how sorry I am. I won’t be able to forgive myself if you don’t. Lucy, I Lo-“
“Don’t say it” I flinched my hands away from his. Hurt flashed in his eyes. “Especially when you don’t mean it”
“I think you should go” I said quietly and bit down on my bottom lip.
“Just listen, I do mean it, I-“ He tried to speak, but I cut him off again.
“Please, just go” I said, my voice was just above a whisper; tears threatening to fall any moment.
Harry sighed and reluctantly got up from his seat and headed for the door. I didn’t move, I didn’t even look at him. When he reached the door way, I saw him in the corner of my eye as he stopped and turned his head to look at me.
“I never stopped loving you, I’m so sorry” he whispered.
And with that he walked out of the house, closing the door behind him. The moment I heard the door shut, I burst into tears for the second time today.
What am I going to do?
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Forgive & Learn to Forget [Harry Styles] - ON HOLDFanfiction
Harry has a past. but even he only knows half the story. Not until he runs into it at a London Gig and the real consequences behind his actions are revealed to him. Can he make it all right again? Will he learn from his mistakes, or will he run when...