We were on the ambulance heading to the hospital.
I felt the whole world collapsing upon me. Dark clouds seemed to constantly loom over my head. I felt as if my heart had been ripped from my body. I cried my heart out seeing Chaeyoung laying on the bed unconscious.
My eyes drip with tears. My walls, the walls that hold me up, make me strong just... collapse. Moment by moment, they fall. Salty drops fall from my chin, drenching my shirt. Perhaps these tears will help wash the blood out. I press my head against Chaeyoung's hand while holding it.
I'm trembling. I can't-can't stop. Even as I press my hand against the wall it shakes, it trembles. It's raw, everything, raw tears, raw emotions. I can't stop... I can't stop. Why can I not stop crying?
Chaeyoung was sent to the operation room.
Jeongyeon, Tzuyu and Momo was sent to treat their injury.
"Ma'am, you need to treat your injury too..." the nurse said to me.
I kept quiet as tears rolled down my face.
"Mina ya.....Go and treat your injury... Chaeyoung wouldn't like it if he see you like that..You must be in your best condition right? Go treat your injury, okay...I will be here. " Jeongyeon came with Tzuyu and Momo.
I followed the nurse to treat my injury. When the nurse wiped my wound with alcohol, the pain with nothing compare to the pain in my heart. After she treated my wound, I went back to outside the operation room waiting for Chaeyoung's operation to finish.
I saw Nayeon, Dahyun and Sana there. I ran to them and hug them.
As much as I tried to hold it in, the pain came out like an uproar from my throat in the form of a silent scream. The beads of water started falling down one after another, without a sign of stopping. I broke down again.
"Buzzzz buzzzz" My phone buzzed..
It was a message from Chaeyoung..
Hey..I know you are crying..So don't cry okay?? I don't want to see you cry. This is a delayed message, I set the timing to sent the message. Although I don't know what will happen to me, I know something probably happened. You know I'm a strong man right? You know that I managed to control my sickness for you? You mean so much to me that I can sacrifice for you.
This is not a goodbye, my darling, this is a thank you. Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever.
I love you.
No matter what has happened. No matter what you’ve done. No matter what you will do. I will always love you. I swear it.
I wanted to tell you that wherever I am, whatever happens, I’ll always think of you, and the time we spent together, as my happiest time. I’d do it all over again, if I had the choice. No regrets.
I love you, Minari ❤.
After reading, I bite my tongue, trying to hold the tears that threatened to leave my eyes. And that's when I can't hold them back. First, one small crystal bead escapes from my right eye. I can feel the warmth, sliding down my cheek, and rolling off my chin. Then another. And another. Until my eyes flood with them, coming like a rainfall. Sniffing every ten seconds, they fall, and fall, and I let them.
"Please don't leave me.." I said like a whisper
My friend still heard me. Then hugged me like no tomorrow. I cried in their embrace.
"Didn't Chaeyoung told you not to cry? Come on.. Don't cry.." Nayeon said
After waiting for 4 hours, the doctor still have no come out of the operation room.
"Mina, its already late, its better if you go home and wait.." Momo said
I closed my eyes acting like I didn't hear him. I had calmed down already. But my heart still aches. Just then, the doctor came out.
"How is he doctor?" I ran up to the doctor
"He is fine now. The bullets are removed. But he loss quite a lot of blood. And because of the hit on his head, he might get amnesia.
Its a 50 to 50 percent. He is in a coma right now because of the hit." He bowed.
"Can we meet him?" Sana said
"Not today. Tomorrow." The doctor said, bowed and walked away.
I sat back on the chair as I closed my eyes.
"Mina, lets go home. We'll come tomorrow." Tzuyu said
I looked at my friend and saw them with worried eyes so I nodded.
"Drive me to Chaeyoung's house." I said emotionless
I reach Chaeyoung's house and my friend wanted to stay with me since they were worried.
I went upstairs to his bedroom as I lay on his bed. I hugged his pillow as I inhaled his scent. Tear tickled down my eye onto the pillow.
"Chaeyoungie, you must wake up okay? I love you too." I said to myself
After a few minutes of thinking, I slowly drifted to sleep.
Its a short chapter.
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