12:06 am- I want to kill myself. I haven't cut in four days my best friend's asleep (at least he better be) and my other one is ignoring me. I have school in 9 hours. I have to wake up in 5 hours. I'm still like an hour away from home. And I have to cut. I have 481 cuts. The thing is though it doesn't feel like enough. Ugh. I miss it so bad. I'm on my way from California I didn't have service so I couldn't update or anything.
God. I'm getting crushed. I hate my parents. And my family. I'm writing a suicide note. It's going to be hella long.
