Who Are You Playing With? | MYG & JH

Chapter 13: Kindness

Sighing to myself, I boot up my computer in order to get more information on this Hyunjin guy. I've already got all of the pictures I'd been given splayed out on the bed along with the different pages of information.

As soon as it's open and running, I quickly set myself to work so that I can get as much information as possible. Everything I can get, I need. I want to be as ready as possible for this since I'm the one person who's supposed to know everything about him for it.

Though, just as I'm getting myself immersed into everything, there's a knock on the door. Frowning, I look over at it before it's opened up. Three girls enter the room, two of them I easily recognize as the girls I'd helped and the third unknown to me.

"Hi, Ryujin! How're you feeling?" The girl I know to be pregnant asks happily as the three of them sit at the end of the bed facing me.

"Perfectly fine. Is there something I can help the three of you with?" I ask, keeping my gaze on my computer screen as I search through some of the windows I have up.

"We brought you lunch! Oh, and we also figured we should probably introduce ourselves. Hara and I wanted to thank you again for saving us that night in that alleyway. We also thought the three of us could become friends!" The same girl speaks, still in a seemingly good mood. I merely shrug in response.

"As wonderful as that sounds, I'm afraid I have work to do girls." I answer, trying to keep my tone kind as I look through some more information.

"Oh come on! Please? It'll be fun to have another girl to hang out with! Besides, you've been working on this mission for days now and you still have a few more before the mission. Aren't you just looking through tons of the same information anyways?" She nearly begs.

"Fine. Only because I know you're pregnant and I don't want those hellish hormones backfiring on anyone." I mutter, leaving the tabs open on my computer as I close it. She squeals happily.

"Yay! Okay, so we should probably start out with introductions and how we're related into the gang. I'm Hyejin! Namjoon's wife." She introduces herself happily as she grins at me.

"My name's Hara. I'm Hoseok's girlfriend." The girl sat in the middle says softly with a sweet smile. I feel my heart drop at the words, only confirming what I'd already figured out on my own.

"And I'm Chiyeon! I'm Yoongi's brothers fiancée." The third girl greets me happily.

"I'm sorry. If you girls will excuse me for a moment." I say kindly, standing up and heading towards the bathroom.

*Trigger Warning*

Closing and locking the door behind me, I lean forward on my hands as I press them to the edge of the counter. I can feel my anxiety building inside me as I attempt to calm myself down.

He has a girlfriend. He loves her. It's obvious just in the way he'd stood next to her back when we were all in Yoongi's office. He doesn't even care for me though. He wouldn't give a single damn if I were gone. If he knew I were dead. He never did care for you and he never will. He always cared for Taehyung more than he ever did for me and even still, now he has a girlfriend and still doesn't give a shit about me.

Trying to calm my hyperventilated breathing, I don't even recognize my own actions as I slip one of the knives out of my jacket sleeve. As I grow closer and closer to having the ability to press it against my skin, I can feel my breathing slowly beginning to calm.

Though, it's not until my jacket is lightly tossed to the floor and the blade is out, being pressed against my skin, that it takes full affect. I hardly realize how much damage I've done until I can hardly see my forearms, my breathing calmed back down completely.

Biting my lip, I clean the blade off and set it to the side before cleaning up my arms as well. Once that's all done, I bandage up my arms and slide my jacket back on before returning the knife to its spot in my jacket sleeve. Running a hand through my hair, I unlock and open the door again to head back over to them.

"Sorry about that." I smile to the three of them, walking back over to the bed as I receive smiles in return.

*Trigger Warning Over*

"I'm really glad you're going to be staying with us, Ryujin. You're super cool and you definitely fit in here." Hara smiles at me. I chuckle, shrugging in response.

"It's not guaranteed that I'm staying just yet. If I fuck something up on this mission, I'm long gone." I remind them. Though, they all roll their eyes in response.

"Considering it already seems your the perfect match for Yoongi, I highly doubt that you're going mess a single thing up." Chiyeon says with a smile of her own. Taking a deep breath I simply shrug again.

"I guess we'll just have to wait and see, huh?" I tell them with a tiny smile.

"Whatever, Ryujin. See you later, yeah?" Hyejin giggles as the three of them stand.

"Sure." I agree with another tiny smile before the three of them leave the room.

Once the door shuts behind them, I sigh and flop back onto my back on the bed. I can definitely see why the boys like the three of them so much. They really are so sweet and kind and caring. It's a really foreign thing for me, that's for sure.

It really does make me question why they're really bothering to keep me around. I mean, I understand. I'm being used to help them get Yoongi's brother back and they wanted to allow the girls to show their thanks to me somehow.

I just really don't belong here though. I'm nothing like those three. I haven't known kindness since I lost Tae. I haven't known kindness or caring or pure helpfulness or just the want to make someone happy or just be there for them since I was seven years old. Since the day we lost him. When I lost my baby brother, I lost everything...

Granted, the girls at the café I worked at were definitely kind. Though, nothing like these three girls. Nothing like Taehyungie.