Last night was insane. I really don't think I've ever connected with somebody like that. I couldn't stop thinking about her the whole duration of my meeting. Andrew kept having to nudge me when they would ask me a question. I just couldn't help it. I decide to text her, "Thanks again for the great night, can't wait to do it again soon xx". I wait to push send, is it too much? I push send without thinking about it any longer.
She replies back a few minutes later "me too;)" which I take to be a success. I am surprised we hit it off so fast. We've known each other for what, three days? And I feel like I've known her for months. I know this lifestyle can take some serious adjustment so I wanna give her some time to let it sink in, see if it's really something she can handle.
Normally she would go out with a guy, and it's a very casual thing. But last night I think she was overwhelmed and how can I blame her? She said her social media is going a little crazy so I go look for myself and she is totally right. She had just under 2000 followers yesterday, and now she has 17000.
I have to admit, I do feel kind of bad. I just don't want to force any kind of lifestyle upon her. She should have what she wants.
I had such an awesome time with Shawn last night, I really didn't want to say goodbye this morning, and all I want right now is to cancel dinner with Andy and text Shawn. However I know Andy will have seen the pictures from last night and think I'm cancelling because of Shawn. And I mean, I am with Shawn, but we're not exclusive or anything and nobody else really knows. And frankly I don't know if I want other people to know yet.
After seeing what Shawn goes through all the time last night I'm not quite ready to be exposed like that all the time.
I text Andy, "We still on for tonight?"
He replies a few minutes later, "Definitely, I'll pick you up at six."
I look at the time and realize that's only an hour away. I pick out an outfit and freshen up my hair and makeup and before I know it he's texting me saying he's outside. I go downstairs and see his car through the lobby windows.
I walk outside and as I step onto the sidewalk I notice a guy standing to my left taking pictures of me. I turn my face the opposite direction and walk a little faster to Andy's car. "Hey!" he says as I get into the passenger side.
"Hi," I say smiling. "Thanks for picking me up."
"It's no problem."
"So where are we going?" I ask curiously.
"It's a little restaurant and they have unreal Mexican. I know you like tacos and they have a whole bunch of options, I think you'll like it."
It does sound good. We drive the rest of the way in silence, but it's not a comfortable silence like it was with Shawn. It has a tinge of awkwardness to it, which feels weird because I've known Andy since I've moved to Toronto. We pull up to a restaurant downtown and I get out of the car.
As we're walking up to the door I notice the same guy who was taking my picture outside of my apartment walking towards me. He must have followed me. Is this because they saw me with Shawn last night? How could they have possibly found out where I live?
Andy can tell that I'm both worried and confused. "Hey, are you okay? You look worried."
"Yeah I'm fine." However I'm definitely not.
We get seated and order our food when he brings up what I was really hoping he didn't know about. "So are you and that Shawn guy together?"
I really don't know how to get out of this one. "No were not, we just met at Lauren's birthday the other night and got talking." Which isn't a complete lie, but I still don't feel good about it.
"You know, I meant what I said the other night in Lauren's room." He is looking right in my eyes and I start to feel guilty so I look away. "Kayleigh, I need you in my life. I want you in my life. You are the most amazing girl I have ever met. I don't know what I was thinking when I ended things with you, I was just so confused and lost. And I'm sorry."
He does seem genuinely sorry and upset for what he did, and it makes me want to comfort him. But at the same time, he broke my heart. And now I've met Shawn, who is a great guy. And things are different. If he had said these things to me before I met Shawn it would be an automatic yes. But I just don't know, and I can't give him an answer right now being this confused.
"Andy, I know you're sorry. But I honestly just don't know what I want right now. I can't tell you yes I want to be with you, but I also can't tell you no. And I sorry, because I really wish I could. But for now, you're going to have to be patient with me." He gives me an understanding look and nods his head in agreement.
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Never Be AloneRomance
Kayleigh is a twenty year old student living in Toronto. Her boyfriend of the past two years just broke up with her, when she finds she is being pursued by a superstar. Does Kayleigh want to see what he has in store or is she too in love with her ex...