I woke up the next morning feeling sick. I decided to stay home. I texted Shawn and Erin telling them so they don't worry about me.
I walked into school and Shawn immediately walked up to me.
"You need to stop." Shawn yelled at me
"What?" I said
"You know what I mean." he said and walked away.
I knew exactly what he meant. Alyssa. She's all I think about. Why did I have to cause her so much pain?
Jill walked up to me shoved me against the lockers and the next thing I knew her lips crashed onto mine. Except it was different this time. I didn't kiss back.
"Playing hard to get huh?" she said smirking
"No I'm done. I can't do whatever this is anymore." I said
"What the fuck Matt! Is there someone else?" she said, she was pissed
By now everyone in the hallway was staring but I didn't even care.
"Yes, no, maybe I don't know!" I said
"Who is the slut?" she yelled
"That's ironic being you're the only slut here." I screamed.
Then I heard people gasp. The next thing I knew Jill's hand smacked me across the face and she ran away crying.
I need to talk to Alyssa tomorrow.
I sat home all day watching TV and reading. I heard a knock on my door. I opened it to see Shawn holding a chocolate chip frappe from McDonalds and all of my favorite disney movies. I just smiled at him.
We went up to my room to watch the movies.
"Which one do you want to watch first?" I asked
"The Lion King duh" he said laughing
Shawn grabbed me by my wrist and pulled me into the bed. I winced in pain as he touched my fresh scars. Shawn looked at me with a concerned face.
"Lyssa" he said, that was his nickname for me
"Yeah" I replied
"Pull up your sleeves." he said
I shook my head no. Shawn pulled up my sleeve and had a look of disappointment on his face.
"I'm so sorry Shawn." I said as I broke down
He grabbed me and started hugging me.
"Shhh baby it's okay shhh." He whispered in my ear.
Yeah I was upset that she cut again. Was I mad at her? No I couldn't be. I sat there cradling her in my arms hoping she would fall asleep but she didn't.
"Can we watch the movie?" she asked
"Sure." I replied
She eventually fell asleep. I laid her down, tucked her under the covers and started to walk out.
"Shawn" she said
"Yes?" I replied
"Thank you for everything"
I bent down kissed her on the forehead and walked out.
I woke up and looked at my clock it read 6:00pm. I got up and went to shower. I got out brushed my hair and my teeth and went to go look for clothes. I pulled out a plain black t-shirt and a pair of sweatpants that Matt left here a few years ago before the bullying began that still fit me.
What am I doing? Matt is such a fucking asshole. He calls me slut and a bunch of other names. I just want to feel close to him again I don't know why though. I put on the sweats, got into bed and went on twitter and tweeted:
"@lyssa707: I miss you so much :("
I put my phone down and minutes later a twitter notification popped up
"Mentioned by @queenjill: @lyssa707 no one likes you and you're worthless."
I just put my phone back down and decided to go to sleep being I would have to go to school tomorrow.
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bully | matt espinosaFanfiction
Alyssa is a sixteen year old girl who gets bullied by a guy who used to be her best friend. Will Alyssa forgive Matt or will things just get worse for her?