After he said that, the room fell silent for a few minutes until I broke it off with a chuckle. "Impossible! Are you insane?"
"The fact that you came here just for that strengthens it."
I don't like the thought of falling for him. If I do fall for him and then that's the end. I've lost to my father and he will have the whole upper hand and I won't have anymore escape and I don't want that to happen.
What if he's right? What if I really am falling for him or what if I already have fallen for him? What am I supposed to do? I'm giving more attention to and that will just make it worse.
"Tell me, what are you so afraid of?"
"I told you I don't want to talk about it."
"I told you not to cry in front of me."
I touched the side of my face and indeed, there's liquid and I'm crying.
"I'm sorry," I muttered and ran out of his room, back to my own room, sitting on the floor with my legs pressed against my chest.
It was a stupid idea to even ask him about it. My emotions were just too high that I couldn't suppress them. I was too emotional. We were told in humanities class back in 9th grade to not make decisions when you're emotions are too strong but I totally ignored that.
A knock on my door disrupted my thoughts. I have a feeling that it's Hyunjin but I can't jump into conclusions but if not him, who else would be visiting me in my dorm at this hour of the night?
I wiped away my tears and forced myself to stop them from falling back down as I got up. I exhaled deeply with my eyes shut before I opened the door, revealing the person I expected: Hwang Hyunjin. And again, my stomach was filled with the painful but sublime sensations that I want to feel all over again because I know it's a feeling of rapture.
"What are you doing here?" I asked him. My voice is still hoarse due to crying and it's embarrassing.
"I won't be able to sleep tonight if you don't tell me what's up."
"Why are you so interested?"
"You did this to me," he said and shut the door behind him. "You intrigue me."
"I've never opened up to anyone before. You're new here so give up," I told him and moved to sit on my bed.
"I told you that I'm not giving up on you. You're isolating yourself. Do you really think that you're going to enjoy your life like that?" He's now standing in front of me.
"I never wanted to enjoy my life," I said coldly.
"Why!" He cried. "You are wasting your whole high school life!"
This time, I stared at him with a cold gaze–glaring. "Who are you to talk about my life like you know me? You don't know anything about me so don't just come here and nag about how I should live my life!"
His face fell to a straight one. He's finally giving up, is he?
"Are you happy?" He slowly asked.
"No! For god's sake Hwang Hyunjin, I am not! I didn't ask for this, okay?!"
When will he leave? I want him to leave instantly.
"Then stop making yourself unhappy." He then left my room–his expression not changing. He left with a cold, straight face. He looked like he won't bother me anymore.
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BOOK 1 & 2 (BOOK 3: WAKE UP) In a word full of mysteries and unusualness, if you're scared, you die. If you're weak, you die. If you're trying to fight what nature has given you, you die. So hush now and don't let them know. 31/03/19 #1 in stay #1...