I have a song stuck in my head
It makes me sad, not happy, filled with dread.
I feel sad and sorrow
And I don't want to feel this way tomorrow
Cause I don't like to be sad
It's not happy and brings me to a dark place
And I'm afraid of the dark.
I don't like being sad, it's scary and it's sometimes hard to crawl back out of the hole and be happy again.
But if I'm happy and positive I don't have to worry
I can fake and hide me sadness without a worry
But if I break I have to build up again,
And building again is harder than faking it
I just want to be happy and not be sad, it's too hard to come back
Im afraid of the dark I hide in
I've been there before and I shed a blind eye to it
Because I'm not happy when I'm sad
I like being happy more than being sad
I want to and do much more when I'm not sad
When I'm sad I don't like who I am
I'm tired and can't find positivity
And that's not who I am
But all this happens when I bottle it up
But I don't know how to "let it out" without everything crashing down
The more I push it down, the higher the wall becomes
And the harder it feels when the wall comes crashing down
When it comes crashing down I feel every negative thing about me and everything negative that can happen to me.
Everyone hates me
I'm too loud
Everyone I love leaves me
Everything I love gets destroyed
You trust too easily, that's why you get hurt
You bring your pain on yourself
You're trying to be strong when you're weak
There's a reason I try to be happy all the time...
Because when I don't,
I die inside...