I was over at Wade's house and things were getting heated between us. I stopped. I didn't want things to progress if he wasn't sure about it but he didn't want to stop.
I decided to take my time with him. Since he never done this and I had, I knew what to do. We removed our clothes until we were completely naked then I prepped him. I also made sure to wear protection.
I took my time with him, as we went slow. I savored every part of him, moving gently. I remember my first time. It was rough. There wasn't any love just lust.
Having never been with anyone, the guy wasn't gentle and it hurt. Before I knew it I was in the backseat of his car. Afterwards, I cried. All he did was drop me off at home. I felt used and discarded.
When I tried to talk to him at school, he ignored me. Treated me like I was trash. I liked him but to him I was just a toy. I was just a freshman and he was a senior. The only one I told about being gay to was uncle Jaime. Luke found out and that was pretty much it.
After that, I had a few flings but nothing serious and I refuse to get close to someone until I knew for sure. I also told myself if I did meet someone I really cared about I would wait. I didn't want them to go through what I went through.
Being with Wade was different. It was filled with love and affection. Both of us found our release and afterwards, we held each other. He got emotional which happens and I just held him.
I wish someone would have held me after my first time. It would have been so much better.
Wade wiped his face, "sorry. I didn't mean to cry."
"It's okay. I cried my first time too," I reassured him.
"Was it like this," he asked me.
"No. I wish it would have been," I sighed.
He looked at me as I laid there.
"How old were you," he asked.
"Fourteen. I was a freshman and he was a senior. It was in the backseat of his car. It was rough and horrible. Can we not talk about this anymore," I asked abruptly. I didn't mean to snap at Wade. I know he was curious but honestly, it wasn't a time I had fond memories of.
"Okay," he said not pushing the issue any further.
I sighed, "I didn't mean to snap. It's just it wasn't the best time for me and thinking about it makes my dick itch." This caused him to laugh as I chuckled myself.
"Cole, I know you're private about yourself but I want to be able to talk to you about things," he said to me.
"I know. I've just never been one to talk about myself but for you I will make the exception," I said as I interlocked our fingers. That was the thing about Wade, I did want to share my inner most thoughts with him.
We laid there and talked. I finally opened up and told him things I had never told anyone. He listened to me and told me things about himself that no one knew. It was just between us. Just the way I like it. It also made me fall deeper and deeper in love with him.
This was a different side to Cole I had never seen before. He was more opened than he had ever been.
Since we met, he had never opened up to me like this. I treasured it with him. As we talked, we laughed and he told me what he planned on doing with his future. I did the same. I could stay here forever.
Eventually, the talking turned to passionate and we went another round. He was as gentle as he was the first time. I couldn't have asked for a better lover than Cole. He made me feel things, I never felt for anyone and never would.
When we finished, we fell asleep in each other's arms. I felt safe in his arms. I am so glad I ran into him in that coffee shop that day.
The next day I awoke to an empty bed. I sat up and looked around. My phone went off. I opened my messages.
Last night was incredible but I don't feel like getting the lecture from hell from my parents. I'll see you later baby. I love you. - Cole
I smiled at that. Then I shot a text back.
Last night was amazing and trust me you will definitely see me later 😉. I love you too babe.
I laid back down and a smile crept upon my face. Damn. Last night was amazing. I had to agree with him about the lecture. When Antonio told me what happened with him, I was rolling. So was Adrian.
I slipped on a pair of sweats and made my way downstairs to grab breakfast. All I could think about was last night. What if it was a one time thing? Stop it Wade. You're letting your insecurities get the best of you.
As I made coffee there was a knock at my door. I went to answer it and a smile curled upon my lips.
"Miss me," he asked me.
I pulled him to me as I crashed my lips into his. My parents walked past us, "in or out. We aren't paying to heat the outside," dad said to us as we both laughed against each other's lips.
Cole came inside and I closed the door.
"How was your night," I asked them.
"Let's just say I'm glad we're home," dad said.
Mom rolled her eyes, "it wasn't that bad."
"If I have to listen to your uncle Chester tell me his hunting story one more time, I'm going to throw myself into oncoming traffic," he told her as I chuckled.
Mom looked at me, "how was your night?"
I looked at Cole who looked away. I turned back to them, "better than expected."
"At least it wasn't boring," Cole smirked. They looked at us strangely as I avoided eye contact.
"Is that coffee," dad asked.
"Yeah I just made a pot," I told him.
"Good. I need some," he said going into the kitchen. Mom followed and I gave Cole a look who chuckled. I rolled my eyes and shook my head as he followed me into the kitchen. Sometimes I wonder about him. But then again, this is Cole we're talking about.
Good thing I love him or I would be in trouble.
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