Will I always be an attention whore to you? I thought you would love me for who I was, but all that was there was emptiness of a selfish man who could never love their own daughter. It's been months and I still cry every time I think of you. You hurt me so much and yet I still yearn to hug you. Why did you have to say those things to me? Why did you have to break that last part of me? You made me feel safe, sane, loved, like there was no one else that could love me this much in that moment of time. But like the rest you broke me, stepped on me and my emotions like they were nothing. Do you really think I did it for attention? Because if you did then you don't know me. All the scars on my body, all the pain I went through, all the thoughts I have in my head, were those acts of me trying to gain attention? Why am I related to such an ugly, selfish, pitiful man like yourself? Even though I'm saying all these horrible things about you I still love you and I don't know why. I want to erase every single memory of you from my head. Why do I still care? I mean it's not like you care. You didn't care then and you certainly don't care now so why, why did you act like you cared about me? I go through this pain every day of my life. I don't care what people say about me I couldn't give a shit less, but you coming from you it tore me apart, but I should've known better. You were never a fucking father to me. You never acted like it and you never will act like it will you? So answer me this do you still think I'm an attention whore David?
