It has been four years since Tris's death. I haven't really recovered at all these last years. Eveyone wants me to move on, continue on with my life. But how could I. How could I move on from the loss of someone I loved. Someone that I wanted to protect, someone that I wanted to be with forever.
"Hey Tobias! Earth to Tobias!" I snapped out of my thoughts and turned to face who was calling my name. It was Christina. I smiled at her. "Oh good your still here. I thought you were in Tris land or something." I chuckled.
"Something like that..." I looked down and my hands. Everyone was eating their food, but me as usual, I don't eat anything.
"Tobais... you need to move on." She said calmly. I rolled my eyes. Everyone here always told me to move on. I shake my head.
"How do you want me to move on? Why do you even care that I still miss her? You took everything to calmly when she died, when we threw her ashes. It looked like you didn't care. Like you don't even miss her." I snapped in a quiet voice.
"You think that I don't miss her!" Everyone got quiet and turned thier heads to us. "Trust me, your not the only one here that does." She said. She got up and walked to a different table.
I know that the factions are gone, but she still has the mouth of a Candor...
I laugh at the thought. I checked the time at my watch. It was almost midnight. I got up from the table and walked to the the hanger where my jacket was at.
"Hey Tobias! You're leaving already?!" I turned around and saw that it was Zeke who called me.
I nod and shout back over the loud music, "Yeah! I need to go back home." Zeke just laughs at me.
"Come on stay for a while!" I shake my head.
"No! I can't maybe next time!" I put on my jacket and walked out of the restaurant and jogged down of the street. It was really quiet at night. I love it when it's like this. I can actually think and focus. I continued walking, not paying attention where I was walking to. As I walked I saw a Ferris wheel. The Ferris wheel that Tris and I climbed on to find Eric's flag. I looked up at it. It was getting rustier and older. I went up to it and went up to the first step.
As I continued to climb up, it takes my breath away. Once I finally reached the top, I sat down on one of the bars.I looked around, enjoying the view. I closed my eyes and I could picture Tris and I here. It was like she never left. I slowly opened my eyes. And those images and memories were gone. I sighed and looked at my shoes.
Why? Why did she have to die? Why?
I wish she was here. I wish she was her to calm me down and to tell me that she loved me. But I know that is impossible. I jumped off from the bar and started to climb down the steps. As I reached the bottom, I checked my watch again. Midnight. I started to jog up to the road and walked into an alley. I walked to the back of the door of the apartments. I stepped inside, loking around if there was anyone around. Once the coast was clear, I went up the stairs. I reached the third floor, looking to see if anyone was around. I speed walked to the end of the hallway, opening room 310. I took off my shoes and my jacket.
I went to the bathroom to take a shower. I took off my shirt and my jeans. I turned on the water and stepped in. I stood there, letting the hot water relax my stiff muscles and to clear my mind. When the water started to get cold, I quickly washed my hair and body. When I was done, I wrapped my waist with a towel and went to my room. I stepped out of the towel, put on a pair of boxers and changed into a pair of sweatpants.
The best thing about this apartments is that they are abandoned, which is good thing. I can use any room I want to. And it's quiet.
I sat on the bed. I ran my hands through my face and hair. I close my eyes and I could see Tris, smiling at me. I smiled to myself. I could see the days I miss so much. I opened my eyes. I got up, went to the bathroom to brush my teeth. Once I was done, I laid down on my bed and closed my eyes. Then I was asleep. I never really fallen asleep this quick, ever since Tris died. But what a I love about it is that I can see Tris's face once again.
Before I have to wake up.
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Change Me (Tobias Eaton FanFiction)Teen Fiction
It has been four years since Tris's death. Tobias is somehow unable to move on from the past. One day, while at the Dauntless headquarters, he meets a mysterious, dangerous girl named Zey. There is something about Zey that make Tobias on his toes...