Mixed emotions

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The next day I went to school with the idea of becoming friends with Antonio. I didn't know what being a friend meant but dad said to get to know him.

I went to my room and he wasn't there. Maybe he was late. Sometimes Cole wakes up late. I took my seat at the table with the puzzle then started working on it, waiting for it but he never came. I didn't understand why. He was here the last two days.

At lunch I waited for him along with Adrian and Wade but they never came. I sat in my quiet room and ate alone. Maybe he was busy. Mom says when people are busy sometimes they don't have time to have lunch. People should always have lunch.

After my last class, I went to my locker and opened the door. Just as I pulled out my bag, the door slammed shut. I stood there. Two girls looked at me.

"Oh look, it's the freak," she mocked.

I looked at her as the other girl snatched my bag from me, "what do we have here?"

"Please give me back my bag," I said to her.

She reached in and pulled out my little pony.

"Oh my god," she laughed. "She still plays with toys," she laughed as the other girl laughed.

"Not only are you a freak but a loser who still plays with toys," the other girl said.  I felt upset as they laughed then they took Twilight Sparkle and ripped off her head as they laughed.

"No!"  I screamed.

"Oh is the baby going to cry," the girl mocked making a baby cry.

I tried to get them back but they pushed me down as they pulled out the others and started destroying them. Oh god. They're killing my friends!

Once they finished they stomped on them then walked walked, laughing.  I scrambled and picked them all up.

"I'll fix you friends," I cradled then as I got up and left quickly.  I came out to the car and over to Luke who was waiting for me.


"I need to go home. I need to fix my friends," I said holding the pieces in my hands.

He looked at me worriedly.

"Luke will take me home so I can fix you. He will take me home," I said to them as I got into the car, while still holding them. As I sat there I rocked back and forth with them in my arm.

He got in and drove us home.  When we pulled up, I got out of the car and hurried inside. I went up to my room and closed the door. I sat there and worked on putting them back together.

Luke called my parents who came straight home. They came into the house.

"What happened," dad asked him.

"I don't know. She was holding her ponies and it looked like someone broke them. She was rocking in the car. When we got home, she went up to her room and been there ever since," he explained to them.

They went up to my room and found me in my room, gluing them back together.  Both of them walked over to me and got down on the floor with me.


"I need to fix them.  They killed them."

"Who hunny?"

"Ella Smith and Darcy Halon. They took my bag. They took my ponies. They killed them. Now I have to fix them," I said as I worked at fixing what they broke.

"Okay, we'll help you," dad said as he reached for a pony and I screamed, "no!"  He stopped.

"Please don't touch them!"

"Okay. We won't touch them," he said pulling his hands back.  They sat there and watched as I worked at fixing them.  I fixed each one of them myself.  I worked until all were fixed. 

I laid down and looked at them, "I promise never to let anyone ever touch you again. No one will you my friends again."

I laid there and talked to them, reassuring them they would be okay.  My parents stayed with me until I calmed down. Then they asked me to come down for dinner.  I refused.  I didn't want to leave my ponies alone.

They told me I could bring them with me.  I picked them all up and held them in my arms as I went downstairs to the kitchen.  I sat down and placed them on the table next to me. As long as I could see them, I knew they were safe. Safe from mean people.

Cole finished making dinner as they set the table.  I talked to my ponies. I kept reassuring them no one would hurt them. My family didn't make a big deal about it. It was something they were accustomed to with me. I wish I could change it but I can't.

As we ate, we all talked.

"How's Twilight doing," Cole asked me.

"Better. Thanks for asking," I said as I ate my dinner.

"That's good Rain. You took really good care of them," Luke added.

"I have to. They're important to me," I told him.

"How was it with Antonio today," dad asked me.

"Antonio didn't come today," I replied.

They all looked at me.

"How come sweety," mom asked.

"I don't know," I shrugged. "He wasn't waiting for me when I went to work on my puzzle.  At lunch he didn't have lunch with me. So I ate alone like before. Adrian and Wade didn't come either," I said to nonchalantly.

"Maybe they were busy," mom said.

"It's okay. Antonio is suppose to help me but got busy. So did the others. People get busy like you said. I have my ponies. As long as I have them, I don't need any other friends," I said as I ate my dinner. They all looked at each other.

After dinner, I gathered my ponies and went to my room. I brushed their main and made them look pretty. They had a rough day. Then I got ready for bed. I set them on my nightstand before crawling into bed.

With that I drifted off to sleep. My ponies were safe and still my friends. They didn't judge me and were always there for me. I could trust them, that why I needed to fix them.

Ella and Darcy were not my friends. They were mean and hurt the things I love. They pushed me down. Antonio wasn't my friend. He wasn't there. He didn't protect us. He let me fall. He promised he wouldn't let me fall. Wade and Adrian weren't my friends. They ignored me. Friends don't do what they did.

My ponies would never ignore me, be mean to me or push me down. They would be kind to me. Tomorrow I would stick to my routine. For me it was better.

With Autism, people tend to focus on one thing. It's a comfort issue. People think is obsessive but it's not. It just part of it. They also don't handle when their structure is broken. You will see more and more in regards to Rain and how everyone handles her.

You will also find out what Antonio is up to and why she didn't see him. It's not what you think.

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