trouble // phan

chapter three

triggers - physical and verbal abuse, drinking, strong language

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dans pov

I arrived home to Adrian sitting on the sofa, watching T.V as usual. Mum wasn't home, she was probably off somewhere with some bloke drinking per usual. 

"Dan! You're home" Adrian wrapped his arms around me. 

"Hiya, Mum not home?" It has become usual for Mum rarely to be home. She became a complete mess when Dad left her. The first few months were the worst. Every night a different man entered our door. Every night Mum came home, carrying the stench of alcohol with her. Men aren't coming home as frequently anymore, but neither is she. Whenever she is home she is lying in her bed, practically lifeless. 

Adrian asked very little questions about what happened. Some nights I'd walk into his room to find his violently shaking, sobbing on the floor. I always hold him in my arms and tell him everything is going to be okay. I wish I could make everything better for him. He deserves the world. My drinking doesn't help, he worries about me ending up like Mom. 

Adrian has only ever seen Mum at her worst once. It happened a few months ago. She stumbled through the door, whiskey bottle in her hand. 

"Daniel you useless piece of shit, you can never do anything right can you!"  She slowly made her way towards me, barely able to walk.

"I wish I never had you." After that was said she repeatedly hit me,  telling me I was nothing and wasn't wanted. It all lasted for around five minutes before she became too weak to abuse me anymore. She just dragged herself upstairs into her room and slept. Adrain was in his room when it all happened, he heard everything. Apart from a few bruises, no physical damage was done. The emotional damage was overwhelming. 

Adrian barely speaks to Mum anymore. Hiding whenever she is home. She never attends anything of his so I go. To every parents evening, to every presentation, she is nowhere to be seen. If it wasn't for Adrain I don't know how I would cope. He is the one thing keeping me from completely breaking.

I head into the kitchen looking in all the cupboards, empty. What a surprise. Pulling £20 out of my wallet I yell to Adrain,"Looks like it's pizza again tonight mate!"

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Forty-five minutes later we are sitting on the sofa watching some film Adrain chose. We talk about random things until Adrian asks when Mum is going to be home. As if just on queue the door bursts open. Mum stumbles through the door. Adrain freezes. She glares at us both and slowly makes her way towards us.

She stands in front of me for a few seconds while I edge closer to Adrian, I can feel him shaking. She smirks and slaps me across the face. She giggles and sighs. The overpowering smell of whiskey hits me. She glares at us one more time before stumbling away, up the stairs,  into her room.

As soon as she is out of site, Adrain breaks.

"W..why won't she stop D...Dan! Why won't she s..stop." Adrain sobs, clenching my shirt. I wrap my arms around him saying I'm fine and that everything is going to be ok. 

"Promise m..me you won't end up like m..mum dan, I can't lose you too!"

Adrain may only be young but he is smart. A few weeks ago I walked into Adrian o the floor crying. Je said they day dad left we lost mum. he was right. She wasn't our mum. She doesn't hug us anymore. She doesn't listen to us. She doesn't care about anything we do anymore. All of Adrain's presentations, all of his parents evenings, she is nowhere to be seen.

After an hour of crying and comforting, Adrian drifted off to sleep. I carried him up to bed, tucking him in and placing a kiss on his forehead. I tiptoe out and carefully close the door behind me.

He can't stay here anymore, not for much longer anyway. Sooner or later mum will come home and it will be too late. Adrain can't be there to witness that. I grab my phone and call the only other person I have left.

"Hello?"

"U..um, hi Nan, it's Dan."

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phils pov

What happened at the shop was the talk of the dinner table.

"Unbelievable!" mum tutted.

"Oh well, it's over now." Dad sighed, clearing up the dinner table. I head upstairs and open my phone.

you have 3 new notifications from your group chat

I told Chris, PJ, and Louise what had happened, so I'm assuming it's their response.

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Chris: What dicks!

Peej: I stg i want to beat the shit out of them

Louise: Hope your dad is ok x

Phil: Yeah everything's fine, Dan seemed a bit worried though, almost upset.

Peej: Philly you worry too much, he was probably fine.

Louise: Yeah don't worry about it x

Chris: Anyways, when can we all meet up!?

Louise: Preferably asap, I'm going to die of boredom! x

Peej: What about a day trip to London!

Chris: YAS! 

Louise: Sounds good x

Peej: You up for it Phil?

Phil: Sure!

They obviously didn't care about Dan, I was probably just overreacting, but something wasn't right. Oh well, better start planning this London trip.

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That's the end of chapter three!

sorry if I upset anyone.

sorry, my writing is v shit also

if u follow me on insta or ur names amelia - hi amelia!- then u know the problems i had with this

it deleted itself twice and uploaded the shitty version.

see ya soon!

~ E x