As the door to the boys apartment creeped open, Alissa and I gave each other a puzzled look before slowly entering the apartment. We closed the door behind us and some music started playing, and then some twinkling yellow lights turned on all over the room. It was beautiful, but what is going on?
I turned on the lights that Kendall and I had hung all throughout the living room, I see Kayla's beautiful face in the dim lights and get a rush of butterflies filling my stomach. I've never felt this way about a girl before and I'm glad to finally be getting these feelings out. Carlos and Logan went downstairs to the pool because Kendall told them we were all going to hang out down there for a bit with the girls.
I see Kendall come out of the bedroom and whisper something in Alissa's ear, then they leave the apartment leaving me alone with Kayla.
"Hey Kayla.." I say rubbing my neck with my left hand while holding the flowers i bought for Kayla behind my back in my right hand.
She walks closer to me, she reaches the living room and now is five feet in front of me, "James, what's going on?" she asks me while looking at me with the cutest confused face I have ever seen.
"Kayla I have to tell you something," I grab her hand and lead her to sit on the couch in front of me as a remain standing. I pull the flowers out from behind my back, lily's, her favorite.
James pulls out a beautiful bouquet of lily flowers, I can't believe he remembered that they're my favorite considering I only mentioned that to him once a while back. He hands me the flowers and kneels down in front of me.
"Kayla, I have to tell you, I'm the one who made it possible for you to stay here in LA, I convinced your mom to let you stay and got Alissa to come out here too. I'm in love with you Kayla, and I have been for months now. Seeing you with Logan and watching him treat you so badly so many times has been killing me. I can't stand not being with you and not telling you how I feel. I've tried to make these feelings go away, but they won't. I've never felt this way about anyone before and I can't explain it but I feel like we have this amazing connection." James says all this while staring directly into my eyes, never breaking contact.
I don't know what to feel or think right now, I'm dating Logan who I care alot about and I really like him, but now James is here telling me how he feels and telling me he's the one who kept me here and brought me my best friend here. I don't know what to say right now.
"I know this is probably very confusing to you, but I can't keep my feelings a secret anymore. I don't want to hurt Logan, he's one of my best friends but he's not treating you the way that you deserve to be treated. I want us to be together, although i know that can take some time for you to figure your feelings out and getting past your relationship with Logan if you do decide you want to be with me. I just hope that you see that my intentions are real and genuine, please just give some thought to this." James sets the flowers down on the couch, grabs my hands and helps me stand up while looking into my eyes.
I can see that James is sincere in his words, we stare into each others eyes for a few minutes while saying nothing. I do feel the connection that James was talking about, we've always been able to talk to each other so easily, he's been an amazing friend to me since I've gotten here. In this moment i just want to kiss him, but i know that i can't do that to Logan.
I need to take some time to figure out exactly what I want.
"I think I should go spend some time alone" I say to James.
"I understand, I don't want to pressure you into doing anything until you figure out what you want." James replies. I grab the flowers and we walk to the door, heading over to my apartment. I open my door and give James a quick hug goodbye. I walk into my bedroom, set the flowers on the dresser and sit down on the bed.
I put my head in my hands, "Now what am I supposed to do?" I ask myself as I lay back on the bed, staring up at the ceiling. I've never been so confused as I am right now. I lay in bed just thinking for what seems like hours before jumping up and saying "I know what I want!"
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Big time new girl?Fanfiction
What happens when a girl meets her dad only to find out he works with the one and only Big Time Rush? Will she survive the craziness of LA? Will she find love she wasn't expecting? Or will everything crash and burn?