August 27th 2018

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I can't stop thinking about when you we're supposed to come here for your birthday.

Should I tell her I don't want to give up?

It hasn't even been 2 minutes of me being awake and you're running through my mind

She unblocked me last night, I want to message her and talk to her and thank her for everything she's done for me. I can't, though.

I was doing good at not thinking about you, but all of a sudden something came over me and I couldn't help it. I got sick to my stomach, wanting to cry.

My mom asked me how much money I had on my card and I only have 9 bucks, so she asked where it went. I told her I bought the necklace. Her immediate facial expression changed, she frown and her voice was soft. "What are you gonna do with that?"
"I don't know."

Do you check to see if I look at your snapchats? I look to see if you did. Is that pathetic?

This is the first time I've been in the car ever sense I got the charges. I hate this feeling.

I'm about to be even more fucked than I was. My mom just told me she wants me to find somewhere else to live. She hasn't made up her mind yet, but I'm stuck. I am officially stuck. I know why you left, I don't blame you for leaving but you left when I absolutely needed you the most. It really sucks. I wish you didn't leave. I know I'm gonna get through this without you, but you are still my rock. What's a balloon supposed to do without it's rock to hold it down to reality?

"If she treats you like a king without the ring, don't take her for granted. She's a keeper"
You are a keeper, did I take you for granted? I didn't mean to. I really tried my best. My legs are numb after reading your post. I've been off if Facebook for that exact reason, because I knew I'd just torture myself. I'm not trying to.

I thought kissing booth was gonna be a funny movie and get my mind off of you but NOPE made my stupid ass cry

Fuck toast

I just spent like 20 minutes making a rope-like thingy out of string just so I could fix the bracelet you gave me. It broke off and I'd been reattaching it but the rope thingy on it just broke so I spent too long trying to fix it.

August 28th 2018

Goodnight, Heaven.

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