August 27th 2018

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1:44am
I can't stop thinking about when you we're supposed to come here for your birthday.

2:12am
Should I tell her I don't want to give up?

8:12am
It hasn't even been 2 minutes of me being awake and you're running through my mind

11:44am
She unblocked me last night, I want to message her and talk to her and thank her for everything she's done for me. I can't, though.

5:21pm
I was doing good at not thinking about you, but all of a sudden something came over me and I couldn't help it. I got sick to my stomach, wanting to cry.

5:39pm
My mom asked me how much money I had on my card and I only have 9 bucks, so she asked where it went. I told her I bought the necklace. Her immediate facial expression changed, she frown and her voice was soft. "What are you gonna do with that?"
"I don't know."

7:22pm
Do you check to see if I look at your snapchats? I look to see if you did. Is that pathetic?

7:42pm
This is the first time I've been in the car ever sense I got the charges. I hate this feeling.

8:01pm
I'm about to be even more fucked than I was. My mom just told me she wants me to find somewhere else to live. She hasn't made up her mind yet, but I'm stuck. I am officially stuck. I know why you left, I don't blame you for leaving but you left when I absolutely needed you the most. It really sucks. I wish you didn't leave. I know I'm gonna get through this without you, but you are still my rock. What's a balloon supposed to do without it's rock to hold it down to reality?

8:42pm
"If she treats you like a king without the ring, don't take her for granted. She's a keeper"
You are a keeper, did I take you for granted? I didn't mean to. I really tried my best. My legs are numb after reading your post. I've been off if Facebook for that exact reason, because I knew I'd just torture myself. I'm not trying to.

9:06pm
I thought kissing booth was gonna be a funny movie and get my mind off of you but NOPE made my stupid ass cry

9:23pm
Fuck toast

11:03pm
I just spent like 20 minutes making a rope-like thingy out of string just so I could fix the bracelet you gave me. It broke off and I'd been reattaching it but the rope thingy on it just broke so I spent too long trying to fix it.

August 28th 2018

12:01am
Goodnight, Heaven.

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