WHEN I WAS WRITING
THIS I PRESSED SOMETHING
AND HALF OF THE CHAPTER
DISAPPEARED AND I COULDNT
GET IT BACK IN THE
REVISION THINGY GRRRR
IM ANGER
11 ; saying 'I love you'
saying I love you,
was not gay.
full homo, no bromo.
minho would drown jisung in his love, literally. when minho and jisung would cuddle, the older would sometimes go overboard. to where minho squeezes him until he was gasping for air, squeal and giggle from how cute jisung was.
jisung didn't mind, but it felt as if he wasn't trying in their relationship. minho was always the one to make the first move, the first one to say 'I love you', the first in everything.
he wanted minho to know that he loved him everyday. but the words would just get tangled and stuck in his throat. whenever minho would just smile, giggle or do anything cute. practically his presence in general, made jisung's heart stop.
he was so in love with the boy, he couldn't even lie.
everyone in the dorm was in their rooms, except or jisung and felix. they sat on the couch, watching tv in silence. since nobody was with them, it was the best time to ask felix a couple things.
"hey lix."
"hm?" the boy answered, his eyes still glued onto the screen.
"so, you know how minho and I are dating right?"
the aussie rolled his eyes, "don't remind me. I'm a single pringle. but pringles come with many other pringles so technically I'm not single. but..what was your question?"
jisung let out a little laugh, "about minho and I. I'm not really good at saying I love you. it's not that I don't want to, it's just I get shy and nervous."
felix shook his head up and down. "alright..do you want advice?"
jisung smiled awkwardly, "yes.."
"well! you've come to the right person. I tell binnie I love him everyday. but he doesn't seem quite ecstatic about it. well, we're not dating because he's not ready yet. but you get it?"
"oh, I'm sorry lix."
felix furrowed a brow, "why be sorry? binnie is just like you, I know him. he might not say it but he loves me back! it's the little things that matter. binnie isn't the type to abruptly show his emotions, but when we're alone he loves to shower me in kisses. don't tell him I said that though, okay?"
"secret kept with me, but how does that help?"
"well, I'm not mad at binnie for not saying I love you all the time. I don't think minho would be mad at you. don't overthink things, or else you'll make it worse for yourself."
"are you sure?"
felix nodded his head, "positive!" the boy's energy was too much for jisung, but it made him feel quite better. "why don't you go say I love you to him right now. just for a little reminder you know?"
jisung pouted, "well..you aren't wrong. but i just get so flustered when I'm with him.."
"then it's even cuter! go, go, go!" (nct dream got me crying) felix pushes jisung off the couch, the boy tumbling onto the floor he whined, "don't be a baby and say something to your mans!"
"fine! stop being pushy!"
jisung got up and stomped his way to minho's room. opening the door to where it flew open, his lip quivered. cheeks burning red as they puffed up while he clenched his fist.
"uh..princess you alright!"
just say it jisung!
"god I love you so much and I want you to know that! even if I don't say it every single day I love you to where I can't live without you! please don't be mad at me or leave me. because I—"
minho was shook by his words, getting up from his bed he walked over to jisung. patting his head, he pulled him into an embrace to calm him down. "woah there, it looks like you're about to pass out."
jisung took deep breathes in and exhaled. "s—sorry..I got carried away did it?"
"nah, you're fine. but I don't care if you don't say I love you every single day. as long as if you don't be lovey dovey with any other member or cheat on me. because I know you love me jisung."
"r—really..so the aussie was right?"
minho raised a brow, "chan?"
"no felix."
minho's one eyebrow fell down and he sighed, "you took advice from felix?"
"is that bad?"
"no, not at all! but you know I love you right?"
jisung buries his face into minho's chest, feeling himself get embarrassed once again. he couldn't help but smile like an idiot. "why do you sound so cool when you say it.." jisung mumbled, making minho laugh.
"I don't sound cool, it's coming from my heart."
"this is so unfair! why do I sound like an idiot when I say cute things! I should—"
minho lifted up jisung's chin with his index finger, kissing him to shut him up, jisung stopped rambling. "god, you're so cute. since you seem like you're in a better mood hey, wanna cuddle?"
jisung snorted by his boyfriend's words. smiling, he gave him another kiss. "cuddles and you? hell yeah."
