they are supposed to be forever.
there are ups and downs.
there are good days and bad days.
but even if you are fighting, if you love them, as a friend, as a sister... or in another way, you are always going to come to the rescue.
or you hope that you will.
that if they're in need you can come over and pick them up.
and maybe in turn they can save you.
or maybe they already have.
but what happens if they end up with someone you think is wrong for them?
what if you can't bring your self to tell them?
what if you're afraid to loose everything by taking a chance?
okay so I'm a guy and she's a girl- so what? everyone has wondered what's going on! we have been together forever, we don't know any different, it's normal for us, we never needed anyone else, we have other friends but we are here for each other
it may seem weird because we have been friends for so long, most people drift apart and there have been times that I'll admit we hated each other momentarily but, when that happened I felt like I had been stabbed through the heart by myself, how could I hate a person so right for me, that fit to me perfectly?
even walking together we seemed to connect together and it was comfortable.
okay so enough of this mushy stuff!
Hayley has got a boyfriend now and I need to give her space but when everyone is whispering about us, about how now I am missing half of me it strikes something in my brain that asks so many questions!
I know the guy she's with is an okay guy, or at least I hope he is but what if he isn't? what if she gets hurt?
I feel weird, how can me and Danny be apart? its just not natural it's like we were meant for each other, but what if we were to become more? what if?
now I have Conner but he seems different now, we have been going out a month and I can tell he's changed, I feel that something is missing from my heart and I feel that something big is coming but I'm scared to believe, I'm scared to venture out and see if I'm right but I also know that if it's going to happen it will happen soon
ugh, I'm bored with hayley, she's nice and everything but, I just don't feel like we go together any more.
I know that I did something bad but I really didn't realise what I was doing!
still that girl! that girl! she was, well she felt right! she felt like everything Hayley isn't! she seemed to complete me and now that she isn't here I feel that I'm not whole!
but how do I tell Hayley, it will kill her and then it might kill me!
I WON'T BE PULLED UNDER! I AM CONNER DUNVILLE! I WILL OVERCOME THIS I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE ANYTHING FROM HER IF I END IT I END IT, I DON'T CARE FOR HER ANY MORE I WILL RISE ABOVE THIS.
maybe I'm in denial, I don't know all I know is I think its somehow her fault! it makes no sense but its how I feel!
I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE ANYTHING FROM HER!