She really just called me a murderer . My heart broke.
I have to just get over her but damn it's too hard . You know that feeling when you're angry at what you did out of stupidity, well that's exactly how I feel .
Couple weeks later
She's been running through my mind all day even though she shouldn't be .
It's just hard to forget someone who's done so much for you. She's done so much that I can't even repay her because i can't find the perfect way to .
It's hard for her to leave my mind . She's stays on it all day . I'm trying to get her out after all this time but it kills me .
If I could I would go back in time and correct all my mistakes I would.
My mind is in a dark place . She left me because she didn't trust me . I can't blame her . Who knows what could've happened.
Who knows what I could've done.
Tossing and turning, tossing and turning.
I'm just tossing and turning as I try to fall asleep. The night it feels gloomy . After what I did I lost myself. I was already lost ,but this type of lost was different. I was here but not here mentally. It felt as if my brain was out of my body .
I miss him but I'm afraid of him . He scares me . I think it's just the thought of having someone is what's killing me inside because I don't have anyone. It's been weeks without him .
"Hey Grayson , do you ever feel afraid of Ethan ?"
A comfortable silence filled the room .
"Yeah , sometimes. He might be terrifying at times but I know how to handle him . He's my brother I love him to death ." His smooth voice spoke .
He pulls me closer holding me tight with his two arms . My head resting on his chest with my arms around his stomach.
We lied there for a moment . I just needed to be held . All you heard was the jersey rain and our gentle breathing.
And all that was running through my mind was
I wonder what he is doing right now .
I am out and about in the city looking for something to do . I'm just looking for something to keep me busy on this day off I have .
I'm walking around in the San Francisco rain with my hood up taking in the surroundings .
What is there to do in this city . Umm , I can walk in the rain all day or I can go back to the hotel and be bored . I guess walking in the rain it is .
I'm looking down at the ground as I walk just thinking to myself when I accidentally bumped into someone and coffee spilled all over me and the other person.
"I'm sorry I'll pay for your clo-" I looked up and a slim girl with bright blue eyes and blond hair with a scrunchie holding it together. She was wearing yellow plaid pants , black dr.Martens ,and this big brown wool jacket.
"It's alright it was my fault I wasn't looking. I'll pay for your clothes. I apologize for this ." I cut her off .
"No it was my fault and it was my coffee." She pushed my hand back with the money in it .
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Y'all gonna laugh y'all asses off , but it's also pretty cute 😄 Vista high's new popular girl Mary meets nerdy boy Ethan Dolan while he's getting bullied. He falls for her personality and everything she has to offer . He wants to get her attention...