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Part 30: Confused

He said pouring all of his heart to you. You withdraw from his grip and kept a distance away from him. You bit your lips as you get more and more nervous. Your body started trembling as the tears rushed down uncontrollably from your eyes. "I..I'm..sorry, I don't think I can do this"

"Why y/n, why can't you choose between the three of us. I thought you already made up your mind" jimin uttered stumbling in his words.

"y/n, am I not enough, I left everything for you, my friends, my job and my life back there in Daegu. You're the only one I would sacrifice my world to, why can't you do the same"

Yoongi's words cut you like knives. But why can't you choose. You don't even know the answer yourself.

"Stop it the both of you. don't put the blame on her we all fall in love with the same girl at the same damn time. She's can take all the time she desires. All we have to do is to wait for her decision"

jungkook said shielding you with Yoongi's harsh words. Acting like the mature one not like the two that just fighting to have your undivided attention. That's the one thing you admire about him. it's not enough for you. But it's still something. Until you said something that made them all glanced at your direction.

"Do you all of you remember the places we have our last date. Go there and when I show myself to your location, that's the person I chose and if I didn't showed up. Promise to not appear in front of me or us. You can unfortunately admire me from a mile away. Just so you know, I'm doing this not for myself but for all of you, I know that at the end your love for yourselves is the most important, I truly loved the three of you and I'm sorry if it ends up like this, I will meet you there...soon"

You left them in addle still can believe that one of them is gonna share his life with you and the non chosen one is only gonna slowly disappear from your life forever.

The thought of that hurts their heart but you have to make a decision as soon as possible not to keep them waiting for your words that's gonna either fix their slightly bruised heart or to shattered them completely. They're destiny in love Is up to you.

You run as fast as you can. You felt a droplet of rain hits your bare skin soaking your shirt all the way down. But It didn't stop you from running. Not caring for the people you bump into and disturb their sunny days with your gloomy energy. You felt tiredness building up in your body. Your feet hurts so much from walking. Not until you glimpse a sight of him. He goes to you and quickly covered you his leather jacket. He brings you inside his house. You seat in his brown colored couch. As he offered you a warm cup of hot chocolate your favorite whereas you me not a fan of instant coffee. Him knowing what you like make your heart fluffed in happiness. He knows you so well despite of the long period of time you got separated from each other.

He stared at you with a smile on his face. Seeing you happily sipping the drink he made. makes him giddy inside. You placed the empty cup at the table. As he's attention is back towards you. "What exactly happen can you explain why you running while it's pouring outside" he asked. "Seokjin oppa, I was trying to get myself away from them" he sighed at your unclear statement. "You know that you can't runaway from them forever y/n" he replied. "I Know, but I cant seem to find the right answer to it. I don't know what to do"

"it's okay to be a little confuse, we all are" you heed at him. "I need your help" He scoot closer to you as he held your hands with a light squeeze.

"Love is like playing with fire, you have to endure the pain when it burned you. The most ache he cause you the more you have to sacrifice to kept it alive and don't want to ever stop from risking your life because at the end you know it's all worth it"

he said with all compassion towards you.

"You've found a good man if he makes you want to be a better woman. The answer is right there in your heart you just gotta see it for your self"

you avert your eyes away from him and looked down to your hands gripping the hem of the blanket. "But how do I know who?" He gently patted your back as you glance back at him. "Who's makes you feel like you just wanna hang out with him all day that even if you didn't do anything just chatting with him makes you cheery inside" you think of the person who makes you exited just by glimpsing at him.

"It's Jungkook, I guess he gives me so much energy to my tamed personality" you answered him.

"Then who's the one that takes cares of you the most, the one that would do anything just to make you happy no matter what?" He asked you another hard question.

"That's alike jimin he cares so much for my well being even if he's not happy himself, I don't know why but I get it" you paused.

"Lastly, who's the one that would sacrifice for you, the one that would take a bullet just to save the person he loved the most. His quote is like the famous wedding vow, til death do us part" you instantly figured out who's this persona of love belongs to.

"Yoongi, that's his personally, he gives up all he has for this one person that ended up to be me"

"You're really lost in the maze, but only you have the map to find the way out. choose the person that makes your heart beats the same as them. Then you'll know who belongs to you and who you truly belongs too...."

"Remember this y/n, you're either gonna end up hurting them if you don't choose the right person right now, and when you do, just be happy and love each other eternally and don't worry about the others they'll take care of their own heart, I'm sure that they will be happy if they see you happy that's how much they love you" Seokjin exclaimed.

You don't know at this point, you're confused. who do you really want? who do you really love? God...why him?

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Ending?
Who will she choose at the end of this long
Journey of love and friendship?
Is it Jungkook, Jimin or
Yoongi?

Who is him?

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