Supernatural One shots

Forget Missing You (Dean)

(Based off the song habits (stay high) by Tove Lo)

Warnings: Trigger warning, Binge eating.

It had been weeks since you last saw Dean. He had cheated on you, and you just couldn't take it. The pain over came you, and you couldn't get over him. You tried to stoop thinking about him, you tried everything.

No matter what happened, you constantly felt like it was your fault. Thoughts swirled in your mind, making you think that it was because of your weight, or your looks.

After every meal, you went into the bathroom, and threw it right back up. It was a bad habit that you had gotten on, but you couldn't help yourself, you felt like you needed to do it.

When you got dressed, you slipped outside of the abandon house, that you found yourself sleeping in, and leaned against the side. You pulled out the pack of menthol cigarettes, and lit one up. There was another one of your bad habits. You couldn't help the memories that came flooding back.

*flashback*

"Dean put me down," you laughed as he held you over his shoulders.

"Fine," he chuckled and sat you down, then pulled you close. "I love you y/n."

"I love you too Dean," you said as Dean leaned down and brushed his lips against yours.

You shook your head from the thought, and finished off your cigarette. You threw it to the ground, and walked to your car.

It may have been the middle if the day, but you needed a drink. You drove off from the abandon house, and made your way towards the city, where a bar that you always went to was at.

You always parked about a block or two away, just so you had no trouble with cops. After walking the rest of the distance, you walked inside and scanned the bar. It only had a few other people in it, no one special. You made your way to the bartender, sat down in on of the chairs.

"What can I get for you today y/n," the bartender, whose name is Dave, asked. He knew your name because of how often you were here.

"The usual," you smile slightly, as Dave lined up five shot glasses, and poured a shot of tequila in each one. You took shot after shot, and flipped over the shot glass when you downed that shot.

You stood up, and made you way to the bathroom, and locked the door. When you opened up your purse, you pulled out the small bottle of pills called Percocet, and took one to help with the pain.

You ended up staying at the bar, until ten o'clock, when Dave told you, you needed to go home. You didn't really want to go home, but there was nothing else you could do, to keep your mind off of him.

When you walked outside, you started walking towards your car, on this quiet night. So quiet, that more memories came flooding back.

*flashback*

"Don't you dare fucking lie to me Dean! I saw you at that bar with that girl. I saw you kissing her and her neck. Now tell me what happened," you said through gritted teeth, as you stood facing Dean outside of your motel room.

"Fine! It happened. I was drunk, and it was a mistake. I was sitting there drinking, and she came up to me. We started talking, and I kept drinking. She kissed me, and it just happened," he said as he looked away from you.

"Did you fuck her?" Dean stood there with his eyes, looking down, not replying. "Dean look at me! Look in my fucking eyes and tell me that you didn't fuck her!"

Dean looked up at you, with a sad face, "I can't tell you that," he whispered.

"Then guess what? You fucked up, and I'm gone," you said as you picked up the bag you had packed right before he got there. You walked past him, and left.

"Y/n wait," Dean said, but you never turned back around.

You were snapped back to reality, when two hands grabbed your shoulders, and flung you to the ground. Standing up quickly, you looked at your attacker, and watched as his eyes flashed black. The demon blade was tucked inside your boot, as you pulled it out and charged at him, but he was too fast.

The demon knocked you back, then pinned you to the wall, making the demon blade fall to the ground.

"Hello there sweetheart. I have a question for you. I know you've been fucking one of the Winchester boys. Where are they?"

"News flash, dick, I haven't seen them in weeks!"

"Tisk tisk, I never liked liars," he said as he twisted his hand, and a flood of pain overwhelmed you, to the point you screamed. "Where are they?"

"I don't know!" You closed your eyes in pain.

"Looking for us," you heard a familiar voice that had been clouding your mind.

You opened your eyes to see Sam and Dean standing behind the demon. Dean stabbed him with the demon blade, making him glow, then fall lifeless to the floor. The demon'a hold on you released, and you caught your stance.

"Y/n? We thought you were dead," Sam said as he came up and hugged you. You smiled in his chest, missing his warm hugs.

"Nope not dead, just hiding," you said as you broke away from him.

"Y/n," Dean said, but you ignored him.

"Thanks Sam, I need to get going," you walked away from them and exited the alleyway.

"Dean, go after her," Sam said as he looked at his older brother. "She looks like a wreck and I know you miss her. I'll get the car and find you later." Dean nodded and took of running behind you.

You kept walking to the car, and heard a voice calling your name in the distance. You turned your head and saw Dean running to you. Turning back around, you kept walking, even when his voice grew closer.

"Y/n please," dean's hand caught your wrist and spun you around.

"No! You can not do this to me! You fucked up and I can't do this again," you snatched your hand away and started walking again. Tears started threatening to fall down your face.

Dean moved in front of you, and stopped you from walking. "I know I fucked up, y/n. I think about it every night and day! I can't stop thinking about how much I love you, and how much I miss you. What I did, was the biggest mistake of my life! Y/n, I need you. I don't know how to carry on without you," he said as he stared into your eyes, and placed his hands on your shoulders.

Tears were now falling freely down your face, as you looked away from him. You wanted to forgive him and take him back. He needed you, just as much as you needed him. "I forgive you, but I won't forget. You do this to me again, and I'm done," you whispered.

"I promise I will never do it again," he said as he pulled you close to him, and kissed you tenderly. You melted right then and there. You missed his touch, his kissed, his everything. When he pulled away, it seemed so soon. He rested his forehead on yours and placed his hands on your cheeks. "I love you so much y/n."

"I love you too, Dean," you smiled and placed your hand on his neck, pulling him in for another kiss.