Falling For Bad (completed 🔥)

XLII

A/N  Idk why I had Niall here but I think it's a good song anyways and I'm sure Maddie likes him to ;) Enjoy!

Madeline's POV

Nathan and I now were heading to John's home. I was feeling a bit anxious tense, my chest feeling a bit tight. After gaining my memory, I couldn't help but feel this had to be done. I felt changed.

And out of nowhere a thought entered me head. Children? I couldn't believe that somehow children joined the picture. Looking towards Nathan, he turned to me and took my hand in his. Did I want kids with Nathan?

Life could be gone and lost any second, this I knew from experience and this I learned. I wished I took more risks and followed my heart more because in the end the pain allowed me to appreciate happiness more, and being with Nathan can hurt but I'm sure being with me hurts him as well. 

And so I thought of the age old question, was it better to have loved and loss than to not have loved at all. But in my case, was it even worth loving? I knew that maybe it was dumb and idiotic, a fault of my character, but I did in fact love Nathan and he loved me. Getting hurt is almost if not always inevitable.

"Why do you want to see John?" The masculine yet soft voice of Nathan's was now directed towards me, and I reciprocated in response.

Clearing my throat I began, "I just want to settle something. Let's say I had an epiphany after everything happened."

"Are you okay?"

Looking at Nathan's face and observing his eyes, I noticed the genuine distress in them. He was worrying over me, and I couldn't help but feel happy at seeing this vulnerable side that he rarely showed. It made him seem more human and easy to read. He was letting his guard down and being more himself. It was sad that it took me being the hospital for it to happen, for him to be more "human" and less closed off.

"I love you."

"You said that already."

Smiling I took his hand and held it to my lips, kissing it softly and relaxing back into my seat.

Nathan's POV

As I led Madeline to the door, I didn't know what to expect. I could only imagine her facing John to tie loose ends, but we had all moved on or at least were trying to. But for her it happened not too long ago, or maybe it did. Maybe now her feelings were rising to the surface and she was no longer trying to be a pacifist. Either way, I'm sure this would be her way of handling John.

"I'll call him," I echoed back to Madeline once we neared the door.

"Go ahead," her reply was lacking emotion or any hint or clue pointing to our purpose being here. I could only assume the worst and hope for the best. Even if events or conversations went south, I was on her side.

I press the button, and soon a face camera displayed John's digital face.  "I'm at the door," I stated as a matter-of-factly.

"A surprise?! I'll buzz you in," he answered dimly. He lacked brains, and it showed. And now he allowed a beast in, ready to pounce. That beast now being Madeline.

Seconds later, the door buzzed and I walked in first and Madeline followed behind.

"Whats uh- Madeline?" Johns feeling could be easily read and I knew that he was even more surprised to see Madeline.

"Hello John," Madeline stepped away from behind me and walked towards John as he made his way down the stairs.

I followed closely, I felt tense and didn't know what to expect. And of course John didn't know that Madeline regained her memory, so he also didn't know what to expect. No one knew what to expect but her.