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Mary's POV

"I can't be with you anymore I don't love you like I used you . " He shouted

"August what didn't I give you. What more do you need from me . " I said in a low voice while tears of disbelief fell from my eyes.

"I've given you all of me . Please tell me how we can make this work . Tell me how I can make you forget about her and remember me " I said

"I just don't feel the same  ." He said .

"Hurry up and pack your shit !" I snapped,he already finished packing his stuff and he was already out the door .



The sound of his car pulling out of the drive way was all you heard accompanied by my sobbed .

I really just lost the only person that actually understood me because I wasn't enough.














After I met August I totally forgot everything and anything about him . Ethan just wasn't part of my thoughts anymore. August was my main reason to feel loved and safe . Now he's gone .

Ethan doesn't love me and I know he doesn't. He's just dealing with a failed marriage . He was so in love with his ex wife that I was used to protect her . I know for a fact that everything I told him didn't matter . I don't matter to him . He's just stuck on this pain that hasn't gone away , so he's using me to feel better about himself. I can tell from the look in his eyes that he doesn't love me but loves the thought of being loved .

I've noticed he doesn't like being alone for a long amount of time . Him being lonely is the problem. Loneliness is his worst nightmare and it's becoming reality.
















Ethan's POV

"Hey baby." I called out .

"Hey baby?" I called out again .

"Hey ba- ." I turned around on the bed and saw nobody. My mind is still stuck on her . My once fake girlfriend slept here and now she's gone and it pains me . It pains me to know that i tore and stripped her apart . I hate feeling alone my mind gets dark .

I don't even want to sleep cause she isn't here .








Her side of the bed ....


It's so lonely.........





















Mary's POV

I lied in the bed alone hugging he covers smelling his fresh cologne as tears run down my cheeks .

The only person I could actually talk to was gone . Just like that............













I don't want to sleep .












1 week later

I was in the studio drowning my self In the music as I cried .

Thoughts of Ethan and August ran through my head . Ethan was haunting my mind , August was making me reminisce of the times we had .

It must be nice to have someone who really is there for you  forever and know it for sure .


I lied back in the chair . I put a  blunt in between my lips and lit it up with the zippo .
I took a long hit and blew out the smoke ready for the beautiful effect to come through.



2 hours later










I got in the booth ,pressed record ,  and started singing something .  I just wanted to speak the truth of how I felt .





"So you said, you've found somebody else
And I prayed, that that was just a lie
So I said I loved you one more time
In case that would change your mind. " my heart it aches .



"You said "I don't want your body but I know that you can find yourself somebody else
Our love has gone cold and it doesn't feel like home when I hold you close
And I'm lookin' at you tryna figure out if this is what you really want"
You said "I don't want your body but I know that you can find yourself somebody else"
I guess I don't want your body if you're wishing you were lying here with someone else." I can hear them laughing at me


"So you said, you've found, somebody else
And I hoped, that this, wasn't goodbye
But I can't help but wonder what went wrong
To make "forever" dead and gone." Weed is the only temporary pain reliever.




"You said "I don't want your body but I know that you can find yourself somebody else
Our love has gone cold and it doesn't feel like home when I hold you close
And I'm lookin' at you tryna figure out if this is what you really want"
You said "I don't want your body but I know that you can find yourself somebody else"
You said "I don't want your body but I know that you can find yourself somebody else"
I guess I don't want your body if you're wishing you were lying here with someone else." I can hear them laughing at me for believing that he was going to stay .










I felt a darkness come over me .















I was unloved all over again   .........









Ethan's POV

The door for the studio was unlocked. I came to talk to her .

I stood on the other side of the glass listening to Mary breakdown as something took over her .  She got back up and started humming . I could hear the tears .

She stood quiet with her eyes closed for a few seconds before she started singing again.


"Don't be afraid to stand alone
Don't be afraid to stand outside the door alone
I know it's hard away from home
And it ain't easy all alone ." Her sad voice sang

"Know it hurts to see the truth in your face
Circumstances bring you down to your knees
Go on and cry an ocean, but don't drown in it
Enough to put your heart at ease
Oh, don't lose your self-esteem
I apologize, for being a woman
It's way .....FUCK! ....... way harder than it seems ." She was hurting . He left her .

"Some times it's hard to face reality." She said before she stopped and fell to her knees and broke down again.

I quickly ran inside and took her into my arms .

"It's ok ." I softly spoke as I sat on the floor rocking her back and forth .

Her soft sobs and my words was all you heard.

"It's ok ."

"It's going to be fine ."

I held her so close . She needed a shoulder to cry on . Luckily I was here .

"I'm not enough." She said .

" You're more than enough. He's just missed out on a beautiful sweet girl ." I couldn't let her talk bad about herself.

"I love you princess."

She pulled away from me and looked at me in disbelief. She got up and ran away leaving me alone on the floor confused .
























She doesn't love me anymore.........

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