I glanced out the window as a shadow passed through the mid morning sunlight for the third time, not moving my head from Aiden's chest. My eyes narrowed as I spotted the bird circling overhead.
"I have to go," I told Aiden, standing. "The Hokage has summoned me."
I went to leave, but was held back by Aiden, who'd—most likely instinctively—grabbed my arm.
"Be careful out there, you hear?" He was worried, though this was nothing new. With me being a jonin, he should be used to this by now.
Reassurance was odd for me, but he seemed to want knowledge that I would be just fine. So I studied his worried face for another moment, recalled exactly how he'd done it last time, then leaned down and kissed him hard on the lips. After a brief hesitation, most likely induced by surprise from my actions, he reciprocated eagerly, opening his mouth to mine and reaching up to thread his fingers into my hair behind my head and bring me closer to him. I freeze, unsure of how he wished me to proceed, and in that moment Aiden let go.
"Wait, sorry, hold on," Aiden pulled back, letting out a hurried breath to steady himself. "You've never kissed me before."
I frowned. "That's blatantly untrue."
"No—I mean, yes—yes, we've, uh, kissed before, but.... but I've always kissed you, you've never—"
Understanding dawns over me. "Been the first to initiate physical contact," I filled in.
"Uh, yeah," Aiden agreed. "So, I just wanted to know, what was, you know, different about this?" His voice pitched up into a squeak at the end and I suppressed the urge to raise an eyebrow.
"You seem to enjoy physical contact with those you... care about," I said slowly. "You hug Aisa frequently, are comfortable touching strangers when assisting them, and have initiated affections with me on a number of occasions."
"So you decided to do this because you thought I would want it?" He asked slowly.
"Precisely." I nodded. "And it seemed as though I was correct. Was I?"
"No—I mean, yes, I did, enjoy, that, I meant that no, that's not the point I'm trying to—Cashile, did you want to do that? Do you enjoy when I hug you and sit next to you and, kiss you?"
My next words stuttered and died in my throat before even fully forming. "I... I'm not... i don't..."
His face shuttered and eyes withdrew, but his words didn't match the emotion I was seeing. "Cashile, it's okay if you don't like it. Have you only been doing this because you think I want it, not because you want it? It's perfectly okay, Cashile, you are under no—"
"I," I spoke up again, cutting him off even though I wasn't sure what I wanted to say. "I don't... know. I don't understand."
Aidens face was still carefully guarded, eyes dark as he studied me before speaking. "What don't you understand?"
"What you mean. You wanted, and I was, willing, and I wouldn't if I wasn't okay with it, but I don't know why, and I enjoy your presence, I enjoy you, you're warm and smart and you don't swear in front of your brother and you make me tea and I like it when you hug me and I just don't understand."
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The Strength of Humanity (A Naruto Fan Fiction)Fanfiction
Cashile Kuroki has discovered the Frailty of Genius, the shortcomings of prodigious talent, the weakness that comes with strength. Standing alone she fell, with no one to catch her as she hit the ground. Now the question is whether or not she can gr...