I'm broken, no one can save me

Chapter 3 ~I'm Trying ~

"bec-ause I had en-ough of the names and the constant messing up" Toby said

"but you can't feel anything?" Jeff said

"I still have emotions" Toby said

Everyone was quite

"can i have my headphones" Toby said

"yes come on let's go get them" EJ said as he helped Toby up and went to his room

Toby doesn't let anyone in his room, EJ stood outside the door Toby came back with his headphones and phone

He sat down on the couch and put his headphones in and put a playlist on

Everyone was sitting in the living room as well so they put TV on and watching the news

There has been a house set on fire last night around 4 am the house had a mother and child they were murdered then burnt

Stay indoors to not have a loss of life that's all for no-

"Toby what we're you doing yesterday at 4 am?" Ben said

"training and killing" Toby said

"okay so you killed them?" Ben said pointing to the screen

"yes I didn't mean it though I lost control" Toby said

"okay then" Ben said Toby put his headphones back in

{Tobys pov}

I forgot that I killed then oh well

Oh I like this song it's happy pills I don't know but it's just so good

"I take my pills and I'm happy all the time I'm happy all the time I'm happy all the time"

{I'm to lazy to put the lyrics in soo just look it up if ya want}

I think my music calms me it helps when I'm sad or upset I can't keep going in this life its horrible

Should I just die already I mean they won't care if I did well maybe Jane, EJ,lj, Sally and slender would care but I don't anymore

I mean I showed them my self harm and yet masky was worried about the fact that I do

Why did he care all of a sudden

"mas-ky can I as-k you som-ething" I said as I took my headphones out

"what's up?" he said

"w-hy did you sudd-enly ca-re ab-out my se-lf harm?" I said

"come with me" he said I followed him outside

"because of this" he said as he lifted his trousers up on his left leg there was self harm scars and words cut into his leg

"don't listen"

"freak"

"die"

"I was shocked to see it on you it reminded me of my self harm from long ago I was just upset" he said

"I'm so-rry for bri-nging it up " I said he hugged me

"just don't please" he said

"okay " I said I hugged him back I didn't know he cared about me

"don't tell anyone okay you and Hoodie only know" he said as he pulled away and went inside I went in after him and headed to my room

I decided to draw or something I was bored

I ended up drawing

I don't know what i drew but it was nice it was like a flower it was alright for just being bored I close

I looked at the time it was almost dinner so I decided to go down stairs and sit with everyone

If I'm being honest I felt not as weak anymore

I'd that because I ate?

Don't eat or we will make you be sick

Just don't eat your fine the way you are

"can yo-u shu-t up?" I mumbled to them I was walking down the stairs

No Toby we do what we want

"sh-ut it" I said a bit louder thsi time

Is someone getting mad?

Oh no what are you going to do?!

HAHAHAHAHAHA STUPID TWITCH

"just shut up" I said this made everyone turn there heads to me

"sor-ry" I said walking up to the living room

"who were you talking to?" Sally said

"no one Sally" I said