Moving In || l.r.h

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I looked myself up and down and nodded. Agreeing I was finally ready to face probably one of the worst days of my life. Luke would be there and so would everyone else.

"Sleeves down, head up." I repeated the motto that I had stood by for years and smiled at my reflection. To anyone looking at me first time I would look like a normal, if slightly gothic, happy teenage girl. But to anyone who looked deeper there was a great sadness behind the sparkle in my eyes. No one ever did look deeper though, so yet again I would go another day with everyone thinking I was perfectly fine. When actually, I was the complete opposite.

"I borrowed your stuff I hope you don't mind," Kaela giggled, knowing that I wouldn't care but telling me that it was happening anyway. I looked at her and smiled. She had a black crop top on, some dark denim jeans and a green and black flannel shirt of mine. She wore them better than I did, with her flat stomach and the flannel completely consuming her in fabric. 

"Not at all," I smiled up at her weakly, she suddenly looked up from admiring my clothes on her body.

"Oh no cupcake what's wrong?" Kaela asked engulfing me in a warming hug, the smell of my clothes floating up. That was all it took, all it ever took to get me to crack through my façade. I couldn't ever keep it up when someone asked me. I never knew why but it was that question 'are you okay?' Or 'what's wrong?' Which got me, maybe because they had seen past my shield or maybe just because it showed that they did actually care. But it always broke me.

"I let my guard down for him Kae, I let him in," I sobbed.

"Well he must have let his down too, come on H, head up. There is an explanation to this. Just talk to him for me? I can't stand to see you like this, you've fought with him so many times but it's got worse and worse and you get closer and closer to him. Maybe you just need to calm down and stop overthinking. He'll explain everything I'm sure of it." I weakly smiled as she wiped the tear that had fallen off of my damp cheek.

"Thank you Kaela."

"Now stop playing hard to get okay? I know he knows what went on, I can tell by the way he looks at you, I know you haven't told him the whole story but he knows. It's time to stop playing tough and realise he's there for you and cares, just like you do deep down okay?" I nodded once again and hugged my amazing best friend.

"You're right, it's time to let my emotions go for once, I need to." She smiled at me like a proud mother and took my hand as we walked out of the house together.

"I'm proud of you Hols, I know it takes a lot to do this after so long being locked away," she said. I didn't reply, I just gave her a satisfied smile to let her know that I thanked her and truly did love her.

"Here goes nothing." I opened the door and stepped out of the car. The smell of teenage boy hit me and I scrunched up my nose. I looked at Kaela and she was doing the same, causing me to giggle slightly as we walked into the building. She took my hand as the hallway developed in front of us and we walked to class together, with no sign of Hemmings yet.

Today is the day. I could do this. But all of my positive thoughts were knocked out of my head when I saw him sat next to my space, a worried expression on his face.

"Kaela I can't do this," I whispered trying to back out of the classroom before he spotted me, but Kaela was the barrier between me and the easy way out.

"Yes you can. Now get your butt over to that seat and talk this out!" she whisper-shouted. I gulped as I slowly pace towards my seat, my eyes glued to the floor.

"Hi," Luke coughed as I sat down and got my books out.

"Hey," I replied.

A/N: Okayyy so I thought that I'd add a little bit of Luke's POV so you know what's going on in that's little blonde head of his 😂

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