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10. catfish

10.

I have to admit, I'm slightly upset that I'm getting this angry at someone I don't know in person. It upsets me that after we have been talking for this long, and after the information I have shared about myself, that he still refuses to tell me anything.

I'm walking to my car when my phone goes off again.

J: why do you think this way?

I groan to myself and throw my backpack into the car before I sit inside. Since it's later in the day, more students are walking on campus and right by my car. I ignore them and close the door for some privacy.

It's not like I need any. He isn't physically here.

I think it's because of the stress from my exam that I'm feeling so frustrated. I can't ignore the fact that I'm wasting my time talking to a faceless dude from the internet. What's in it for me if he sees what I'm up to everyday but I can't even know his real name or face?

You: you're uncomfortable every time I say Justin

J: no

You: yes

J: no

You: yes

J: no

You: really?

J: I'm sorry noona what can I do 😭

You: tell me your name
or what you look like
something
please

J: im shy

You: always the excuse :/

J: it's true
Jae please

You: it makes me uncomfortable
that you know so much about me
But I don't know you

J: I understand

You: I don't think you do

J: I do. I just am slow to trust
Some time
Please

You: when will it be time?

J: soon
please Jae noona

You: I'm driving I'll talk to you later.

I actually shut my phone off because I don't want to be tempted to text him again. I know I shouldn't care this much. I know I shouldn't. There's just something about him that has made me care about him. It's not romantic, but just that I can sense his loneliness.

A loneliness like mine. A loneliness in which you are surrounded by people but feel like you are by yourself. I can tell he is the same as me. I feel like we could be very good friends if he would just stop being so secretive and annoying about it.

When I arrive home it's 12PM. I've had some time to think about my text messages with J, but I still feel the same way. It's useless to fight with him. It's not like he's obligated to send me anything. I'm also not obligated to talk to him. I've watched way too many episodes of Catfish: The TV Show to know that he is hiding who he actually is.