"Go!" I scowl annoyed.
Mark hesitates and after a moment, he finally accelerates and I frown annoyed as my phone continues to vibrate.
I know she's calling. I saw the guilt and remorse in her eyes when she saw the engagement ring, but that will change almost immediately when I talk to her. I haven't seen her so angry, so judgemental towards my past.
She saw my father behind my back just to pick at my past a little more.
Running my hands through my hair frustratedly, I turn my phone off and try to forget everything that just happened. But there's a huge hole in my stomach, I can't ignore. It's eating me alive.
"Can you drive any slower?!" I scowl at Mark and look over at Blaise who's sitting in the passenger seat.
"Sir, it's raining." Mark replies flatly and I roll my eyes as I look back down at my phone.
I turn my phone back on after a moment to send a message to Dr Calvert.
*can I see you now?
The reply is almost immediate.
*Sorry, Zayn. I have a session in 10 minutes. Is 10:30 okay?
*ten minutes is all I need. I'm heading to New York.
*come on over then. I'm sure I can squeeze you in.
When I arrive at Dr Calverts office, I realise I have no idea what I'm going to say to her. I haven't seen her in a while.
Victoria has. I guess it's my time.
"Zayn." Ella greets.
She closes the door behind me when I don't greet her. "How are you?"
Stupid question. Why do people ask such stupid questions?!
I'm fucking great, that's why I asked to come see you; Stupid question.
"What can I do for you?" She asks this time as she gestures me to sit.
I sigh. "Hear me out? I don't know."
She leans on the desk behind her and offers some refreshments which I deny. "Let's start with how are you? I haven't seen you in a while."
"Not so well obviously Ella." I scowl.
"What's happening? Tell me." The concern is distintively heard in her voice. "Start off-" She pauses and thinks to herself. "Start off from the time you were last here. That was almost two weeks ago."
"A lot has happened."
A lot always happens when I'm around Victoria.
"Victoria tells me you are taking your pills."
I scoff and roll my eyes. "Yeah."
"How is that going for you?"
I rub my head in frustration. "My pills are fine. My life isn't. I didn't come here to talk about bipolar and shit you didn'n't diagnose me with till recently! I came to talk about stuff that is happening now! I can't function properly!" I almost yell, but I have more control over my anger now.
Thank the pills, I guess.
"What's going on then, Zayn?" She questions, still calm.
After a frustrated sigh, I fill her in with all the shit thats happened. It feels good to get it off my chest, but at the same time, I wish it was Victoria I was talking too. At least Ella can keep her mouth shut when I'm trying to explain what happened and what I'm thinking.
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