Breathe

Sea of the Unknown

I guess

This is what it feels like to lose yourself.

To finally

Set free and not look back.

Because all this time,

I believed the lies and promises,

I believed that I would be okay.

But, from the beginning,

It never was okay.

I miss living in the fake facade of everything being perfect

Even if it was lies.

Now I lay awake wondering if I'll ever be happy again.

Endless hours upon hours,

Filled with tears

And cries of the unknown.

I remembering smiling,

And I remember having you.

I remember having dreams and hopes,

But now I know I have an unreal fantasy.

My thoughts kill me slowly

Because I don't know which direction I'm going anymore.

And I don't know if I'll make it

But it's okay because I enjoy the feeling

Of drowning in the sea and not having to worry anymore.