staying behind with you | bellarke

chapter 14

Clarke stayed in Becca's laboratory for a while. Just the thought of losing Bellamy made her heart ache, her arms shiver. She couldn't lose him. Not today, not tomorrow, not ever.

He said he had been coughing red blood. But he is still alive... which might probably mean that he is a hybrid. Bellamy could only be half nightblood -- it helped him survive until now, but it's slowly fading. But even if Bellamy is only half nightblood, it doesn't mean he will die.

Clarke gets up and starts running to their village, she knows exactly what to do.

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''Is Clarke gone forever?'' Madi asks almost in a whisper.

They were sitting next to the fire, like they did every night. But this time it was different. This time, Madi didn't beg to hear another story about their friends in space or in the bunker. This time, Madi was scared for Clarke. Bellamy was angry at himself for not being strong enough.

''She is just... thinking. She does that all the time. Don't worry, little natblida.'' Bellamy puts his arms around her tiny body and Madi rests her head on his chest. They weren't used to this environment. Heavy, sad,..

After a long silence, the little curious girl speaks once more.

''My nontu (father) and my nomon (mother) used to show hodnes (love) many times.. but it's not very usual to do that in public.. Did you and Clarke did that too before?''

Bellamy looks at her, knowing exactly what she meant. He didn't know how to answer that, though.

''You always talked about Skairipa and Lincoln,'' she continued ''but you never told me about Wanheda and her loyal Knight.''

''Right, well..'' Bellamy clears his throat. ''They.. they went through a lot. At first, they didn't really like each other. They would find themselves screaming at each other, having different points of view. Secretly, the Knight found she was amusing. She believed in something and she did it, without no hesitation. He liked that about her. Throughout the first weeks on the ground, their respect for each other grew. They tolerated each other, relied on each other's opinions,-''

''They were leaders.'' Madi completed.

''Exactly. Then the grown-ups came down too. At first, their relationship didn't change much, but she chose differently. They were, once more, distant. It just wasn't... the same.''

''She fell in hodnes (love)?''

''More than once, and each time it hurt more and more.''

''Didn't the Knight kiss the bruises? That's what my nomon (mother) used to do everytime I was hurt.''

Bellamy looked at Madi again, she was so innocent that she had no idea how much her questions were hurting him. He just wished he could go back time and make things differently.

''She hid her bruises very well... no one saw them, nor knew about them most of the time.''

''And-''

''Madi, I think we should stop. I'm not feeling very well. Let's put you in bed, shall we?''

Bellamy got up and so did the girl beside him and after her quick nod, they went to her bedroom.

''Sleep well, little natblida.''

''You too.''

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Bellamy was almost falling asleep, next to the fire, while waiting for Clarke. It had been hours and hours, she hadn't came back yet. He was getting worried.

Bellamy knew there wasn't a real threat out there, but just thinking she was hurt or crying anywhere, or even lost,... it broke his heart.

''Bellamy..'' Clarke whispered and he slowly opened his eyes. ''We need to talk.''

''Are you okay?'' He quickly asked, while sitting next to her.

''I'm sorry I left. You just caught me out of guard. Anyways,'' Clarke looks at the fire avoiding his gaze. ''I think I have a solution. I'm not letting you die. You said you were coughing red blood, right?'' She finally looks at him. Bellamy nods. ''Well, that probably means you are half nightblood-- and before you interrupt me, let me explain. You are alive and barely have bruises which means that the nightblood worked, but the red blood you coughed could only mean that you didn't have enough serum although it is in your body.''

''Alright, I understand. But what are we going to do now? There is no serum left.''

''But there is nightblood everywhere in this camp.''

''Are you saying...''

''I'm transfusing part of my blood to you.''

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