pursuit of hope (nagito x reader)

Well this is akward

I saw him lying there all chained up with a big grin on his face.
"Kiera-chan"
"What the hell?"
"Oh this, yeah I would greet you with my full hospitality but im a bit tied up at the moment."
"Your irrially calm out this."
"By the way weres mahiru? Did she run off?"
"So thats why she gave me this." I was going to have to have a chat with mahiru later about this.
"Did you come all this way to bring me food?"
"Without realizing it I guess."
"Im surprised you would go out of your way to bring food somewhere without even knowing why. Your such a kind person Kiera-chan."
   What he was saying was nice in general but the vibe he gave off wasnt. It was eractic, insane.
   "You know you dont have to call me kiera-chan you can just call me kiera."
   I said as I sat the food near him.
   But then I realized something how was he supose to eat lying down?
   I moved the food and went to move him so he was sitting up straight.
   He was kind of silient and just let me move him which was disconcerning to say the least.
   I had managed to get him sitting up and propped up agaisnt the wall. I grabbed the food and put it on his lap. 
  He didnt say anything for a minute but I could see a slight blush on his cheeks.
  Before I could have much time to think whats thats about he spoke up.
"Kiera I know its a lot to ask you to feed trash like me but im curently unable to feed myself."
  "Oh"
  Im going to have to feed him! Yeah I defiently was gonna have a talk with mahiru later. I could feel my cheeks heat up a little bit. I grabbed a piece of toast and held it up to his lips. He parted them and started chewing on the bread. My gosh this was awkard. I felt my fingers brush his lips as he finished the toast. I moved my hand quickly embarrased by the gesture.
   I went to hand him the second piece when my stomach grumbled.
  "Kiera-chan have you ate this morning?"
  "No I didnt get a chance to." I decided to leave off the part about me being to nauscoues to eat anything yesterday.
  I went to hold up the toast so he could eat it but he refused to.
  "Whats up?"
  "How can trash like me eat when your hungry."
  "Would you stop calling yourself trash."
  "Im fine here" i said offering him the toast again.
  He turned his head away.
  "My gosh your acting like a child."
  I started to eat the toast
  "There are you happy?"
  He smiled some at me as I finished the toast. I had so many questions i could ask him. I dont if i actually wanted answers to them. So I might hold off on some.
  "So Nagito I have to know how do you are you able to wear that jacket all the time. I feel like I would die of a heat stroke."
  He laughed some at that. "I dont know I never really thought about it."
"Why did you do it?"
"Why did I do what kiera-chan"
"Why did you try to kill Byukaya."
"Cause I wanted to make all your talents shine by overcoming the despair it would bring."
"How does that even make sense you wanted to kill one of us to make us better? Do you realize how crazy that sounds."
"I dont care if im looked at as crazy or not as long as I get to play a part in helping some one's hope succeed."
He had this crazy look in his eyes again.
"But what if you had succeded. You would of died."
"I would of died happy knowing I gave my friends a chance to let thier talent shine and hope prevail."
I grabed his face upset about what he was saying.
"What if you dying would throw someone into despair. Because I saw you as a friend and dont want you to die."
He stayed silient for a minute. Like he was contemplating what was said.
I picked up his tray and headed out of the room then building annoyed. Not knowing what I was going to do about this boy.