staying behind with you | bellarke

chapter 12

"Clarke."

The blonde girl turns around and approaches Bellamy. He was sitting in a chair, in the beautiful place they built outside so they could all have a joyful breakfast together.

As she sits in front of him, they smile at each other, although Bellamy's fades quickly.

"Where is Madi?" He questions, trying to avoid the actual subject. He was nervous.

"In the lake. She is refreshing herself... it might take a while." Clarke chuckles, remembering how lazy the girl was and how much she loved being in the fresh water. Her face falls. "I assume you didn't call me her for Madi whereabouts?"

"You assumed right. I just.. I don't know how to say it." He starts playing with random objects in the table, avoiding her penetrating gaze.

"Is something wrong? Is it about Octavia?"

Silence. Bellamy didn't say a word.

"Are you finally ready to talk about.. you know.. Gina?"

"Because if you are," Clarke continues, "I'm ready too. Sometimes all we need is to vent with someone and it will eventually heal with time."

Clarke tries to grab his hand, but he refuses to, finally looking at her.

"That's not it. I.. Look, what I'm about to tell you might change things drastically between us, between Madi and I, between our little community here. I'm still trying to understand it myself, but I can't keep it from you any longer."

"Bellamy, whatever is happening, whatever is bothering you," Clarke reaches for his hand once more, and succeeds, "I'm here, Madi is here. We will help you overcome whatever it is. We've been through many monsters, grounders, we survived deaths and great injuries,... whatever it is that you're about to tell me, doesn't look like any worse."

Bellamy takes a deep breath, "I.... I mean, I'm...., I don't know I just..."

"It's okay, go on." Clarke encourages him, calmly nodding and squeezing his hand.

"I've been... I think I'm going to die. The serum didn't work."

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